Exodus

Believe It

     We get to my house and I pull my car into to garage.

"Whoa this is so unreal, I can't believe I'm hanging out with you."
Shyanne says.

"I can't believe I'm hanging out with Pouya, Courtney, Peep, Fat Nick, Bexey, and the boys so I guess we're even."
I say

"But didn't you grow up with the boys?"
She asks

"Yeah but now everyone knows them."

"Why don't you ever talk about them on your Chanel?"
She asks.

"Cause I don't chase clout it's dumb I love them for them not for their fame."

"That's a great answer."
Peep says

I just smile at him.

We walk into the house.

"Wow this is nice."
Shyanne says.

"I'm glad you think so."
I reply

"It's so weird that I'm here right now."
She says

"Trust me it's not that exciting."
I laugh.

"Trust me to me it is, you talk about real shit on your channel. You actually saved my life when I was about to pop a bunch of pills. You get me and it's cool to have someone who understands what you're going through."
Shyanne goes on

"No I get that."
The thought of Ruby popping in my head

That man has been by my side through everything and I get to call him my best friend.

"Enough sad shit y'all ready to party."
Peep says pulling a snuff bottle out of his pants and then a bag of it out of his backpack.

"Yes let's."
I say walking over to the couch where he's sitting.

"This is okay with you right?"
He asks

I look up at Shyanne who looks a little scared. I get up and drag her off to the side.

"You don't have to do anything you don't want to."
I say

"I'm just confused."
She says

"Why are you confused?"
I question.

"You talk about getting over your addiction and stuff on your channel."
She says a little sad.

"This world is so fucked up shyanne sometimes I need something to take me away. I am fighting addiction, and I am getting better. You don't have to worry about it okay?"
I assure her

"Okay but I'm just gonna stick to drinking tonight."
She says

"That's totally okay."
I say hugging her.

"I still love you Cherry and you're not alone."
She says hugging me back.

I sit back at the table next to peep who's already done two lines.

"This is for you"
He says handing me the rolled up hundred

I snort one line then another.

"Do you have any xans as an equalizer?"
I ask now pumped up.

He pulls a little bag out of his backpack handing it to me. Inside contains 3 Xanax. I slip the bag into my pocket standing up.

"Thanks peep I owe you."
I say shoving the baggy into my pocket.

"Nah take it as a gift."
He says doing another line.