Caught On Fire (WAKAS)

VI.

I wasn't in my right frame after I talked to her. Umuwi akong lasing, hanggang maari gusto kong ibaon na lang lahat iyon sa kalasingan. Nakita ko naman si Sab na nakaupo sa sofa. I told her not to come here without my permission. Napapadalas na rin ang pagpunta niya rito. I really should change my password.

"Why did you drink?" Wala akong ganang makipagusap kaya nilagpasan ko siya.

"Grayson, I am talking you! Why did you drink?"

"Sab.." Malalim kong boses.

"Am I still a nuissance, Gray just because I asked you?! I wanted to know!"

"Look, Sab--"

"Tell me, Gray. Am I right? Totoo ba na si Dr. Esguerra iyong tattoo sa braso mo, huh? Was she the girl you were crazy about huh?!" She raised her voice. 

I frustratedly raked my hair using my fingers. "Oo, Sab! Siya pa rin ang mahal ko! All this time, my love for her never left. It's still here.. burning, blazing.."

It has been her that can make me lose my sanity. It's her who can wrap me around her fingers. It's her who can bring storm and calm waves.

I can see how tears were streaming down on her face. You were good Sab, but Esguerra will never be replaced.

"Hayop ka!" She slapped me hard. I held my face.

"Wala pala iyong tatlong taon, huh?! Napahilamos ako sa mukha. I deserve it. 

"Yes, Sabrina! Una pa lang, alam mo namang wala talaga. I courted you because I am indebted to your family. They wanted me to take care of you, Sab.. Anong magagawa ko iyon ang gusto nila?"

"So you never loved me?! Hindi mo man lang ako minahal dahil diyan sa Dr. Esguerra mo na 'yan! Hayop siya!" Gigil na hayag nito. I saw her gritting her teeth. I held her hand and tightened its grip.

"Don't you dare hurt her, Sabrina! Subukan mo lang.. You don't know what I'm capable of." May pagbabanta kong tinig.

Tinulak niya naman ako kaya napabitaw ako sa pagkakahawak ko sa kanya. "How dare you?! Wala man lang, Gray! I did all I could for you to love me! Why? Why?"

"I'm sorry, Sabrina.. We need to end this."

"No! Ayoko! Magpapakamatay na ako!"

Hindi ko siya pinansin at dumiretso na lang sa kwarto. I know she's just acting.

Pero, hindi ko naman inaasahan. Life welcomed me with drought. I was silently hoping that one day rain would come. Kasi, nakakapagod ng initindihin ang lahat ng bagay. Hindi ba ako pwedeng maging masaya?

Everything felt heavy. Pwede bang sarili ko naman ang intindihin ko?

Series of misfortune events came like a thunder leaving me devastated.

Kiko impregnated his friend. Sino ang tinawag niya sa pagbayad ng ospital? Ako. Pati iyon pinoproblema ko.

Ate Frenzy was assaulted, dinepensahan ko iyon kahit mukhang malabo dahil kilalang politiko iyon.

Politics is already tainted in dirt, it's people who makes it dirtier.

Nevertheless, I still won the case.

In the several years of service, halos bilang lang sa kamay ko ang matalo sa kaso. Siguro, pabor talaga sa akin ang sitwasyon. No wonder why our firm became famous too.

Sometimes, I fabricate informations and evidences para lang maipanalo. That's how law works. You can still manipulate it with your hand. Madumi akong maglaro? No. I just know how to handle it properly.