darkest days | jorge + martina ✓

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I let a huge sigh escape from my mouth. I was sitting on the hallway of Tini's room. She just had an aggression attack, very intense.

It took the doctors more than 2 hours to calm her. She was so different, so not herself. It frightened me to see her like that. 

Now she was asleep, silently lying in her bed like a princess. Her beautiful brown locks rested on the white pillow.

Her soft breaths made her chest go up and down. I was carefully watching her through the window of her door, desperately wanting to touch her.

I wanted to touch her, but I saw how dangerous she could be. Slamming everything she could reach for. Throwing cups and plates at the nurses. Hurting herself with it.

Screaming and kicking to push them out of the room. She fought against everyone around her, she seemed so desperate somehow.

Now she was calm and asleep, but it hurted to be so far away from her. Not being able to kiss her nor even touch her.

I did go to school, as promised, and did my usual practices. I've gotten an immense amount of comments about how much I've changed and how I don't belong in the popular squad anymore because I never hang out with them.

And unlike the earlier me, I didn't care at all. She was important to me, she had this thing over her which makes me want to protect her.

Now she was stuck in that damn room like a prisoner.

I can't protect her, can't hold her. I can't calm her or whisper sweet words in her ear.

"Sir she's asleep, I think you should go home and take your rest" A nurse said whom walked up to me. I sighed out a long breath.

I didn't want to leave her, I wanted to be here and hold her even though I couldn't. Just mentally hold her.

"I'm going to stay here" I determingly told her and she immediately knew she couldn't change my mind.

Instead she walked away and later came back with some blankets and a pillow. "Here, just sleep on that bench" She pointed towards a blue plastic bench which was normally a place where people would wait until their loved ones were out of surgery.

Now it was my sleeping spot.

I nodded with a fake smile and stepped towards the ice cold plastic bench.

I got as comfortable as I could possibly be on a plastic bench. I stated at the white ceiling and smelled the dirty hospital smell around the room.

Never in a million years I would've thought

The blanket covered my shaking body as I slowly drifted asleep.

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School again. Cande was sitting next to me, writing notes down in her notebook.

I stared at my empty sheets beneath me.

In the time of seconds I felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket. I took it and looked at the caller.

Hospital.

"Can I go to the toilet?" I questioned while I held my hand in the air.

The teacher nodded as I rushed out of the classroom, hiding my phone. I felt everyone's eyes burning in my back.

"Hello? Doctor?" I asked, my voice filled with worry and confusion.

"It's Tini, something happened" My heart dropped down. My body felt useless. I should've stayed with her today after that attack of yesterday.

"Come to the hospital as fast as possible" The doctor said clearly before I heard the dull sound which meant he hung up. I took a hand through my brown hairs.

I rushed myself back to the classroom, ignoring the teacher and pulling Cande with me. With protest of the teacher we left the school, running to the hospital.

"They called me.... something happened" My heavy breathing reflected between every word.

We kept running, the cold air cutting through our skins.

My lungs started burning from the small amount of air that was entering them. I felt my throat getting sore and my lips drying out.

The hospital came into our sight as we only started running faster. We reached the entrance and quickened our speed inside.

Rushing up the stairs, doctors tried to slow us, but I wasn't stopping.

We reached Tini's floor as I ran to her room, her doctor was in front of it with a few of the nurses. They were clearly expecting us.

"What happened?" I tried to sound loudly but I had lost all my breath from running. "Tell me!" My voice was shaking but aggressive at the same time.

The doctor looked down in sadness, just like all the nurses around him. I shook my head silently, hoping that what I was thinking wasn't actually true.

I heard a gasp from Cande behind me, no doubt that she was having the same thoughts as me.

I tried looking through the vertical window of the door behind them, but it was covered. I already prepared myself for the three words.

"She is.... dead"

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sorry for not updating love! this is so sad tho :(
-manon<3