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Y/N's POV
2 MONTHS LATER
You're not sure how you survived the two months that miraculously flew by in a blink of an eye but you did.
That Halloween night had been the beginning and the ending of a lot of things.
You were determined to never contact Jungkook, to ignore Jimin's instagram notification posts and you even tried to turn it off but your heart couldn't go through that
You realized that just because you wanted nothing to do with them didn't mean you weren't curious to know how they were doing.
Did they forget about you, were they all really close like they had always been, did they deal with things but most importantly...
Were Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook getting along now that you were no longer in the picture?
You missed them more than you wanted to admit but what were you supposed to do, call Jungkook, text him?
Like and comment Jimin's numerous posts about their trip to Dubai?
Cyber Stalk Taehyung's Instagram account which you found by going through Jimin's account?
Every single night you went on his Instagram account and saw all the pictures they took and your heart swelled, just seeing Taehyung posing and smiling, laughing or sulking in certain photos.
You saw pictures of Jungkook smiling, you saw Jimin eating and laughing with his friends and you just couldn't let it sink in that you had to let them go for them to be happy.
You were the cause of their dispute, you were the reason they couldn't get along and now they were smiling and laughing together without you.
You were happy for them but at the same time your heart ached, and the more it did the more bad decisions you took.
Jackson. Fucking. Wang.
You knew it was wrong, it was stupid to sleep with him but yet every time you felt alone and upset angry sex with him was the only thing that could help you forget about your worries.
You were still haunted, no matter how hard you tried to move on.
You were still stuck.
You were ashamed every time your orgasm hit you but before that came you felt no guilt whatsoever when he kissed you or touched you because in your mind he wasn't the one kissing or touching you.
You had made it clear to Jackson that the both of you having sex meant nothing but something to pass time, and though he seemed surprised to hear it coming from you, he accepted it on your terms.
