Bruises

If you love me let me go

I smiled to myself thinking about how everything I could've possibly wanted came true.

I finally got the one I've wanted forever. But I just couldn't shake that feeling off me like I was doing something wrong.

I was walking to my house late at night to pack my stuff for the runaway. This time it would be real. This time we were going to get the fuck out of this town. Together. It's like I was living a dream.

But before I could do anything I had to talk to Conner. Even though Alexa was the one I wanted, I still loved conner as my brother and best friend. I didn't want to fuck things up with him. He was one of the only people who mattered to me in my life.

I remembered the directions to his house since I would always have to walk to places since I didn't have enough money for a car. Either I would walk or Alexa would drive me.

I've always been good at directions, and paying focused close attention to stuff.

When I arrived at the outside, I noticed their was only had one car, meaning his parents were out, and he was the only one home.

I knocked on his door waiting for him to come out. It was 12 am, and it wasn't safe for me to be out alone.

The door abruptly opened.

There Conner stood. His black hair was a rifled mess, he had no shirt on and sweats, he had terrible noticeable eye bags, and it looked like I just interrupted his crying session from his red eyes and flushed cheeks.

"Skylar? What are you doing out here alone in the cold? Come inside."

Even though he was reckless, he was so selfless he couldn't help himself from thinking about others.

He closed the door behind me. "Please sit," he offered. "I cant stay. I just came to tell you something." He sighed knowing it was about Alexa.

"So how are you holding up?" I asked with worry in my eyes. "Like you even need to ask with one brief glance at me," was his reply.

"Look Conner I'm sorry about what happened, but maybe it was meant to be-"

"Please don't Sky, what did she send you over or something cause she still wants to be friends?"

"No she didn't send me, but I owe you the truth."

"What are you talking about Sky?"

"I'm running away- we're running away." I cleared my throat. "We're?"

"Me and Lexi. I'm in love with her, and we're starting a relationship. I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you."

He fumed. "Get out," he calmly said. My eyes were watery. This was his way of saying goodbye forever. "What?" I wiped my eyes.

"You heard me. I said get out," he gritted his teeth turning his back on me so I couldn't see his anger. "Please don't do this Conner, I love you."

"Just like you loved my girlfriend? Sorry love my ex girlfriend."

"Please you can't shut your back on me too. You're one of the only people who's been there for me." I placed a hand on his back facing the other way.

"Yet you betrayed me like this. If you really did love me, you would never do this to me."

At this point I was balling my eyes out.

"I tried, but I can't forbid myself from love. I've never loved someone like I've loved her," I pleaded.

"You should know she's just using you to figure herself out. She's confused, and she thinks she knows what she wants."

"It's not like that."

"You say that, but you know deep down its true." He had a point, but I didn't show him that.

"Just please get the hell out my house. You're not welcome anymore." I could tell his eyes were burning in tears.

It was hard for him to say goodbye too. "I don't ever want to see you again." I was weak. I kissed his stiff cheek goodbye and trembled out the door.

"I'm so sorry," I whispered one last time before I shut the door behind me. Right when I closed the door, I slid down his door and cried to myself.

I could feel him doing the same on the other end of the door like in movies.

I was so stupid to really think it wouldn't bother him. To think everything would be the same and alright.....