• Imperfect • YBN Nahmir •

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• Nahmir •

I been in the house a lot lately. I haven't gone out for anything but school, and that's because my momma forces me to go.

It's hard watching her get closer to Zion. To watch her smile, to watch him make her smile, to see her giggling around him, to see him smiling at her, and everything else I see... it hurts.

I actually wanted to be with Addison, she meant a lot to me and now I let that go to waste.

Amari, the last time I spoke to her she wasn't so so well either. Amari was nothing more than a sister to me, it's all Durrell's fault.

I'm gonna get him back for this, no matter the consequences.

"Nicholas Simmons!" my mother's voice filed my ears. I got up out of bed and went to meet my mother.

"Yes ma?" I asked and she looked back at me and motioned for me to come sit next to her.

I went and sat down next to her, she held her arms out for me. I took a deep breath and leaned into my mothers arms knowing how much I needed this. I put my arms around her and had everything in me to not cry.

Men don't cry.

"Nick I know your hurting but you need to stop moping around. She will come back eventually, y'all had something good." she said and I closed my eyes.

"Ma, I really liked her. Like you don't understand, even I don't even understand myself. My feelings for her are something different ma" I said and she rubbed my back.

"Nick hunny, you may have fallen deep for her but give her time. She may be hurting and just can't handle it" she said and images of her and Zion popped up in my head.

"What if she moves on ma?" I questioned looking up at her. She wiped my eyes, they were watery.

"Then you move on too son"

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I freshened myself up, Im a real nigga not no weak nigga. I'm not about to let this get to me, i'm Nahmir.

I picked up my phone and headed towards the front door.

"I'm out ma, love you" I said and she turned around giving me a smile.

"Love you too Nicholas" she said and I left.

I got in the car driving off to the mall.

Right when I got in the car Zion starts blowing up my phone. I look at all the messages and that one name boiled my blood.

I drove to the mall and once I got there I hurried to the north end of the mall. I see Addison and Durell talking so I waited and tried to ear hustle what I could.

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I watched as Addison walked away from me. It was hard not to try and go after her but like my ma said... she'll come back eventually.

I started walking back to the exit/entry until I heard someone yelling my name. I turned around and seen Alani.

"Miiirrrr" she said putting her arms around me, I let her enjoy this moment because it's most likely the last.