• Imperfect • YBN Nahmir •

• 17 •

• addison •

i woke up to the sign of no Zion, i knew the mindset he had.

wanting to get back at nahmir and amari.

but i was indecisive, i didn't wanna ruin everything that made me happy.

he doesn't understand, he's not the only one hurting.

hell nahmir probably hurting, amari most definitely hurting, and i'm hurting.

he can't be selfish, it'll only make things worse.

i gathered my belonging and got up, leaving his room i ran into him.

she stumbled back as i stood there still.

"where you going?"

"i'm going home glizz"

he moved out my way and i walked past him.
before walking out the door i looked back at him, he just watched me.

i waved and then left, i couldn't bare the tension between him and i.

• • •

i arrived at the house and sat in the car for awhile.

i haven't faced amari since everything happened.

i got out the car heading towards the front door.

i opened it hearing chattering, i walked in the house and then everything went quiet.

i closed the door and then looked around, amari and her mother were in the living room.

i looked down and sighed.

"i'll be in my room if anyone needs me"

i walked to my room and closed the door, quickly locking it.

i needed alone time, just to let my thoughts sit.

i put all of my stuff down in a nearby chair and went straight to my bathroom.

i took a shower and washed my hair.

as i walked into my room the scent of my soap followed.

i dried off, putting on a sports bra and some shorts.

i threw on a regular white tee over everything, i grabbed my phone.

going to my music app i went to my sad playlist.

skin by xxxtentacion began to play through my phones speakers.

i went to snapchat and looked at myself.

"this is who i am, i am Addison" i repeated over and over again as x's voice played.

"There she was with the blade in her hand, scares on her skin replace kiss of a man"

as i was singing the song i took a picture.