Broken (Jason Todd x OC)

24. Practice

=--Allison--=

Every time I think I have no family or doubt my friends, I seem to find someone who proves me otherwise. When I have my darkest moments, there always seems to be someone to remind me I'm not alone. I take it for granted. I do. I don't realize it in the moment, or I brush it away. But when I look back on it I realize my mistake.

Ah, my mistakes. One of the many reasons I need to always be doing something. It always starts with my smaller mistakes, like who I get close to, what I do, my crimes, then it gets into deeper mistakes. The ones that make me scream in my sleep and go crazy in the day. 

I realize Ron is looking at me because of my silence, so I offer him one of my perfected fake smiles, which he gladly takes. 

Ron is on the phone calling a bunch of dancers, trying to hire back up dances for me, and Jared is emailing the owner of the venue trying to make arrangements for lights and music. I am helping both of them make sure they are relaying correct information and throwing out ideas about the details.

"Yeah, okay, I will send you the routines and you can come in any time tomrrow sl we can start details and working together. Yeah, okay. See you then." Ron finishes the phone call and hangs up with a sigh. If he didn't look so determined to help I would have felt bad, but the look on his face told me he was glad he could do something for me. "I have your dancers, and they are going to start kearning the dance adn come in tomorrow so we can get this learnt as soonas possible."

"And I emailed the venue staff they houldget back to me soon, they will most likekly be fine with all the arrangements though." Jared informs me while closing his computer. 

"Is there anything else I need to do?" I ask them both.

"Just come in tomorrow so we can get this show on the road, kid."

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Hey, uh yeah. 

This is my bad.

I got caught up with school and just completely lost track of the book then I lost the appeal to it because it is a little weird. 

Any of you ever see that tumblr post about why shipping adoptive siblings is bad and how it's really weird...? I've been writing this story where I didn't image Allison and Jason as brothers because Allison in my mind was never adopted by Bruce, but just re reading this it like is real weird. 

I really like these characters and this book is really special to me but like... I might have to either delete it and write a new story or completely go through and edit it to change some major plot points. Just like making it so Allison was friends with Dick in the circus, and then he left and she went into the system and became vigilante. Then she meets him and he convinces bruce to not adopt her but to let her have a room and live there, and she meets them through that. Or where she meets Jason when they are both as there vigilantes, but then they get lost until they take off their mask with each other and hang out in real life then she reconnects with dick that way idk dudes. 

I really really love to write but this book is a lil weird so maybe I abandon it completely and write a new genre. 

Im really sorry for being gone for so long and then coming back and saying this, I dont want to abandon this book and want to try writing again but if/when i do I will have to change the book.