War Is Pain And Love (TomTord) *Story Has Officially Discontinued*

Emotions

Tord POV:
  
      After my mini breakdown I went to bed and now I'm awake ...sitting up in my bed....thinking . one more day to my birthday and yellow leaders too. I'm not really a party person but who cares my army deserves a break . they worked hard .tears, pain and on top of that war.. More specifically world war II we lost but not by to much . the light of the outside was making it way into my room . particles of dust flowing around the lighted area . the colors of orange and yellow filling up my room yet again like any other day but this time it reminded me of toms eyes and how they changed colors  . oi! That reminded me I have to go to the labs and see what those colors mean . I quickly got out of my bed and got dressed. Wearing my usual red leader uniform that weighs about 20lbs in total . I put my eye patch on and headed out to the lab .it was quiet(uptown!!) . I enjoyed hearing only the sounds of my shoes other than hearing thousands of others . the only time I love the feeling of hearing footsteps from my army is when we are at war and we match in harmony ..it shows you a lot of power and hard work all in one . I made it to the lab and went to the emotion maker machine . which I used to make toms eyes change color . I printed out a sheet of the colors and what they meant. Beep beep . it slowly printed out as my shoes impatiently tapped against the floor. Finally it finished . I grabbed it and started reading it

Green: you feel normal or slightly annoyed it depends on the situation or uncomfortable

Yellow: usually it means your relaxed and calmed but in some cases it can mean your confused

Dark pink : confused but only in a love situation . usually when you have feelings for more than one (oof)

Soft pink : flustered at how someone was treating you , usually if it is your crush or if someone is complimenting you

Blue: sad .you feel broken you were hurt and it could be by anyone even so eonw your hate or love . stress

Orange :
You  feel as if your missing something or get a strange sence something bad is gonna happen

Red: you feel hate . you want to punch someone or something really hard . pissed off and you won't let that feeling go for a long time

Black:  the most dangerous color to be around . only a few people get, this color this means exterminate or kill . your are the colors blue and red combined but with a sence of torture . this feeling or color may disappear but it doesn't mean they still don't feel it

Blank : if you see this ..no color ..don't trust the person ...they are most likely not feeling relaxed or calm ..,,they can attack with no warning ...don't fall for their tricks ...stay away from them!!

Colorful : it is when your eye color reflects off of something beautiful you see . like if you see a rainbow and you love it your eyes will copy the color

    I was in shock and in awe . I didn't care about most of the colors but black and blank is......,...scary .... Tom had black eyes before and now that I think of it he didn't let go all of his anger.. But if he did then that would have not ended pretty. I folded the paper in my pocket and returned to my office waiting for tom to arrive .

   Thirty minutes later ~

  Tom finally arrived . he opened my door and entered .
    "Hello sir,  what would you want from me today " I can tell he wasn't used to calling me sir.
    "Thomas I know we have changed cause of this army but don't make it awkward between us . when were alone call me tord "
     his shoulders In a sudden move raised as he looked at the floor he looked mad and sad . his face holding the emotions
     "Tord , I hate this.... I hate how I'm here and I f-feel like an animal...or obident dog... I hate this f-feeling " his eyes turned blue and he looked down, . I stared at him seeing black drops falling on the floor . guilt? Pain? Ugh I hate having these feelings they make me ....say to much. And I started too.
      "I know you were forced into this and miss 'people' but as a friend I need you . ever since you came I felt as if I can trust you and you had my back even if you said you hated me " I stood up and walked over to tom . I put my hand on his shoulder , he stiffed up but still looking down.
     "Listen , I'm sorry..okay I'm sorry for you having to go through the most pain then anybody in this damn army! But I need you tom . I r-really do . you are my emotional support and I will try to support you to...Thomas I don't hate you ...anymore..your a friend and I hope you can accept that" he was still stiff in the shoulders. He wasn't moving at all .
    "Tom?" He looked up at me . a new color? Purple! What the fuck did he just....new color.
    "Today you only have to send some workers to decorate the party" he said it in a cold tone and ignored what I said as if he didn't want to hear me trying to get close to him. It hurt...alot .
   "Tom.."I said Ina worry some tone.
    "I'm dismissed" he dismissed himself!? He was about to leave but I couldn't let him go.
    "SOLDIER! You face ME when I'm speaking to you . now don't you leave until I say so! " his hands were holding the door handle about to leave . he froze in his spot. He slightly turned his head over his shoulder ...his eyes had no color .
      "I'm dismissed" he repeated but with anger , hate and pain . he left the room leaving me .....confused on what just happened .  why does this always happen! When I try to get close all of a sudden he gets sad or mad! . I took out my walkie talkie and spoke to the delivery workers. I still had work to do
     "Soldiers  bring in supplies for the party and make sure to tell the decorated section to started decorating , you are dissmissed" I turned it off and headed to my desk reading my hentai to relief some stress. I haven't had time to read hernia in years!! I almost teared up thinking about it . poor hentai. Poor tom . I hope he feels better on tommorows party .

Tom POV:
   I headed out of Tord's office mad, sad . I don't know how I'm feeling I just know I'm not happy . it hard to see tord trying to co fort me when in all these past years he only tortured me and my friends . I remembered I had my bass. What was her name? Guess I forgot my basses name. I headed to my room and locked the door . I looked for my bass and picked her up playing my favorite song
 

   
(Im to lazy to put the lyrics please listen to lyrics)
 
   I played the song with more emotion then I ever had . I sang and rapped and cried and felt emotions . emotions I haven't felt for years . I could feel myself relax . my shoulders dropped as I continued to rap. Susan that is her name! I could feel myself getting happier but only for that moment . the song finished and I was completely relaxed . nothing else mattered . for the rest of the day I continued to sing not caring if soldiers walked by and heard me.

Sry I haven't made a chapter Ina while . this was rushed cause I had no idea how what to put . ugh I hate writers block

Shout out goes to
 
Sweetlytreats101 for being there for me through tough times . your an amazing friend