My Public Diary as an 8th grader 2018-2019😪

Thursday November 29, 2018

Ok...so a LOT happened today. Let's start off in the morning and work our way through the day this time since obviously I usually don't go in order from what happened first when I write about this stuff.

So in the morning I had no friends to hang out with, well, I did, but they literally told me to go away and talk to someone else straight to my face, and actually PUSHED me away from them, and no not a light shove or anything. They literally whipped me around, and actually PUSHED me people. Then I found another friend, and I actually found some people that actually WANT to talk to me, but I had to force myself into the conversation, which is the sad part, and yes I know it's rude. I wonder when I would actually find someone who wants to talk to me on their own free will. Probably not anytime soon. This just made me happy and cheerful, which I haven't been in a while.

Then in "Buc Block", we were watching this science video if certain facts were science fiction, or science fact. I gotta say, I learned A LOT from this because I basically got every answer wrong, even though I love science!

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Lol I have a challenge for you, I want you to try and imagine what I look like after EVERYTHING I wrote in this diary. Let me give you a hint. I am Asian, and no not the Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese types, I am Filipino. Some of you might argue that I am a Pacific Islander, but just whatever.

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Then in choir, my two friends and I surprisingly got the solo part in a song that we're singing in a concert. I mean, they deserve to, but me with them is just.....sheesh.

After my first class, I went to math which was boring and uneventful other than getting almost every answer wrong in a competition game. I mean...I am really good at math, and I learned all this stuff last year, but I am HORRIBLE at it when I am under pressure and have to rush. Sooo yeah....that happened.

In social studies I was just sitting there with my scissors and eraser, cutting it up and spreading tiny eraser bits all over the desk and floor. Please don't ask me why I has scissors and decided to cut the eraser. It's obvious that I am obsessed with cutting things.

Then lunch came around and I was SSOO mad at my friends. I was hungry and tired, and they dragged me to the end of the line ALL BECAUSE THERE WAS A SPIDER! WHICH WAS OUTSIDE, NOWHERE CLOSE TO US, ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WINDOW! Yes it's big, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN JUST DRAG ME AWAY FROM IT TO THE END OF THE LINE TO BE THE LAST ONE TO GET MY FOOD! IT WAS AN ACTUAL LUNCH TODAY TOO! AND I HAD TO RUSH TO EAT ALL OF IT BECAUSE IT WAS FRICKING GOOD!

After I had to endure all my pent up anger, I went outside for our break, and met this girl who is good at hand games, and we were playing the game called "Slide Baby". I call it a different way but whatever, it's not like anyone cares about someone else's opinion. It's just the way some people are in this world.

After that I went to ELA to take a test on a story we finished reading, and when I arrived, I GOT A FORM SAYING THEY WANT ME TO JOIN NJHS(National Junior Honor Society)! For those of you who don't know what NJHS is, it's basically and organization where people with a 3.5-4.0(idk) GPA(grade point average) join. Although it costs $20.

Then I went to science, but just after I arrive, my ex-crush was there even though he isn't even in my class. I don't know whether he knows I used to like him or not, or thinks I still like him, but I just run away, I am not good at confrontation. Anyway, he was blocking my way to my seat, and when he moved aside I just ran past him making sure he wouldn't acknowledge me, but he was like, "Hi lingling" (No that is not my name, it is just a nickname he gave me because I'm Asian) After that we were doing an experiment, AND WE WERE BURNING THINGS FOR AN OBSERVATION THING! THIS WAS THE BEST SCIENCE EXPERIMENT THAT I HAVE HAD THROUGH MY ENTIRE LIFE IN SCHOOL! I was just fascinated with this, probably because I didn't get to see fire in a while since my parents don't let me near candles and anything flammable anymore. That's why I got my computer taken away for some time. Lol. After that I went back to cutting up my eraser.

One of my classmates told me that I am just obsessed with destruction and I pretty much agree with her. Then she gave me a big apple, and I gotta say. It. Was. GOOD! It was so plump, but it was very hard to eat since it was very hard and firm.

Then I got home, fed the dog, did homework, watch tv. Tell dad about progress reports, (got A's and B's) and NJHS form thingy. We decided to put them on fridge for mom to notice to see if she is getting better at paying attention to things. It did not work out. I ended up telling her instead, and she was like, "Oh ok, good job -------" in a fake voice while looking at her phone. She asked about the induction thing, which I don't think they have at this school. I got accepted into NJHS in my old school as well and they host induction ceremonies where you get a certificate and card, and you hold a candle and pledge, then sign a book and all that stuff.

After that I just put Storm up and secretly stay up all night on my computer which I am doing rn.

I checked on one of my friend's profiles from my old school, and they posted a video of her saying "MISS YOU" to all her friends since she was moving away. Only to find out that I wasn't there, now I see that no one really accepted me there, only four or five people are my ACTUAL friends that know me. I guess I really am just a nobody since I don't really have a lot of people who don't have time in the day to talk to me. Eh, who cares, don't have to waste my time trying to become their friend when I already know the outcome.