Sitting there pinching my arm, thinking about all the possibilities if i listened to my stomach roar. Rocking myself slightly, back and forth, whispering the same words ' your stomachs not hungry, thats the pain of weight loss.' Awoken, awoken from my blank out as Beth shook my arm. The bell rang and i ran, i didn't stop until i was in the toilets. I pinned my hair up and stared, i suddenly teared all my clothes off, chucking them on the floor until i was in my underwear and a vest top. Still staring. I let out a scream as i slid my body to the floor and the tears flew. Why me? Why couldn't it be someone who didn't care what they looked like? Someone who didn't have any other flaws? My vision blurred in the tears, as someone ran up to me, i was pulled into someones chest. They screamed at me but yet i didn't hear them, i just sat there, waiting.
I awoke, this time not from a blank out, and not by Beth. I was in a bed. An unknown bed. I sat up and there i was alone, not very unexpected really, i mean my only real friend is Beth, out of school anyway. I stared trying to flash back what happened but i didn't remember anything. A women wearing a white uniform came in, her name was Ashley, according to her name badge . She said "hello love, you had a panic attack earlier, your friend Beth just left she had to finish some homework apparently." I couldn't find the words to say, i was still in school and i had a panic attack, my head ached massively but i don't remember a thing. ".. She looked quite shook up, beth did, oh and you fainted by the way after the panic attack and all" the nurse smiled as if she said a good thing. I was wearing a baggy oversized top, come on guys i don't look that fat do i am clearly not gonna fit a 20, right?? I looked at what i was wearing with disgust, "oh sorry about your clothing, we found you naked on the toilet floor. I know its not particularly the best clothing ever but its all we had" wait did that nurse just say naked! In the toilets! I almost was sick from the embarrassment of a FATTO been caught naked! Oh no! What about if someone did see me what would i do? I can't even remember what happened! I needed Beth! I needed Beth.
