Beeping, muffled voices were heard and the machine. My eyes tried to open but the intensity of the light closes them straight away. A second later my eyelids blink again but this time manage to stay open. My blurred vision scans the room. Where was i? When did i get here? I rush of energy runs through my body as my senses turn on. I feel a warm familiar hand on mine as a turn to see who's hand it was. It was Matt! Flashbacks from yesterday appear, him disappearing, me falling. I squeeze his hand to try and wake him. He groans low in his throat before realising i am awake. He lifts his head up and i see his small smile creep on his lips but he still looks scared.
"Why am i here Matt?" "What you don't remember?"
"Nope not at all, my head hurts" i try and sit up but the pain in my head gets worse. "Anna, no." His voice is firm but soft at the same time. "I'm going to get a nurse" he starts getting up just as his fingers leave mine, i pull him back, i can see the anger in his eyes, anger at me? "Matt don't leave, please, dont leave me" i wince.
"Anna, I can't bear to even look at you right now, i can't believe it-" he was almost crying as he run a hand through his hair. "-you're so skinny, for godsake why didn't you eat anything!" He comes and sits back next to me again thank god. "I-i don't know" words fail me. "You don't know, look at you, you're just skin and bones. You didnt eat anything yesterday and probably not the day before, god Anna, we was dancing and you fainted. You hit your head and it was bleeding. I didnt know what to do i was so scared, if anything happened to you-" he starts crying as i stroke my hand through his hair. "That's not what happened i was looking for you, you was gone, i couldn't find you anywhere and i fell over"
"No, Anna, we was dancing and you fell, why would i leave you?" I shrugged because his tone was kind of scaring me and I didn't want to argue back. We starred at each other, speechless, for a couple of minutes. Suddenly the door blew open and a woman dressed in white appeared, she was perfect, her shiny bob hair bounced of her shoulders with every step as she gleamed at Matt. He's mine!
"Anna, i'm Dr.Elizabeth Gletchin, i think we have somethings to discuss perhaps in private" in sync we both turn and face Matt, "No, whatever you can say to her you can say in front of me, i want to make sure she is okay"
"Matt i'm fine, please, just go and get me a glass of water" he blows out a massive sigh before stomping out the room, honestly whats his problem. "Okay, Anna honey, you're going to have to stay in health care until your weight is back to a healthy weight." My smile fades, maybe this is why Will is so mad at me. "What! Why! I'm not even underweight!"
"Yes you are Anna, your BMI is 16.4, if you carry on not eating the way you are you're going to die. Look i'm sorry honey it's the way it is" her sweet touch stung my hand as she grasped it. "Please don't tell my mum, she won't forgive me!"
"We kind of have to, look we have our health clinic visiting later, they'll want to talk to you, but you really need to talk to your boyfriend, hes been through a lot yesterday night." And with that she was gone. I was left by myself, apart from the tubes sticking out of me. I swear my bmi was 22, maybe my scales was broke, maybe my height was wrong, but 16.4! I aren't that skinny am i. My thoughts are soon interrupted as the door flies open again this time it's Matt with a polystyrene cup in his hand. As he sits back next to me handing me the cup.
"I'm so sorry Matt"
"What for?" His voice is barely a whisper, he seems distracted.
"You can go home, you don't have to stay with me" he doesn't want me anymore, i make him sick, he can't bear to look at me. "Anna, no, it's not that. I don't need this right now. We've been going out a week. I mean i know you didn't eat much but this bad!"
I just can't hold it in, tears stream down my face as he shouts these words at me.
"Well go then" i shout beneath my sobs. "No. I'm not leaving you"
"Matt we've been going out a week, i'm 16, i don't need a babysitter, i don't need you here. I should've never kissed you back" the words come out before i get chance to stop them, but i sniffle some tears back as he gets up and storms out. And then i'm off again, screaming and shouting. I'm not good enough. I soon fall asleep, my eyes drained. He left me.
