The Bad Boy's Roommate || min yoongi ff !DISCONTINUED!

Part 10 - thantophobia

Thantophobia - (noun) the phobia of losing someone you love

Yoongi POV

I hope your correct jungkookie.

I sit still. All that is heard throughout the eerily silent hallway is the sound of my muffled sobbing into jungkooks shirt.

He holds me for what feels like hours before a nurse slowly approaches with a sympathetic look on her face, "you all may go in and see her. Please refrain from being too loud or doing anything to her as all her senses are sensitive at this time. I'm terribly sorry but we are doing everything we can for her at the moment" she explains calmly before patting me soothingly on the shoulder, "come with me I'll let you all in" she motions us to follow us and we do so eagerly.

She swipes her card in front of the door and opens the door with care. My eyes widen in horror and I feel the room beginning to spin and slow down again as I see her lying there, lifelessly. I scan her small and frail body noticing many many different needles and tubes embedded into her skin keeping her alive. I feel myself beginning to tear up again but I will not cry, not in front of the boys.

I take small steps towards her all the while trying to calm my nausea-induced dizziness. I finally reach her bedside and sit down. I take her hand but quickly recoil in panic. Her hands are ice cold. She feels dead. After my little moment I compose myself again and take her hand properly.

"I am so sorry y/n" I begin in a quiet and hoarse voice I barely recognise as my own, "I am so sorry I couldn't help you and I'm so sorry that I didn't know that these things happen to you. I want to protect you but I don't know how" I say as my voice begins to crack so I stop talking before the tears begin to flow.

I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up to see jin hyung with a sad smile, "it's okay yoongi-ah. I know she will be fine, she's a fighter, our fighter" he says encouragingly before patting my shoulder one last time and going to join the other boys. Jungkook comes over and sits beside me. He stares at her before reaching up to brush a piece of hair out of her face, "she's so beautiful even when she's sick" he whispers as he continues to stare at her. I look up at her face and examine her face. That small button nose, rosy lips and beautifully pale skin that seemed to glisten. I shifted my gaze to jungkook who has taken her hand into his and lifted it to his face as a tear rolls down his cheek, accompanied by another one. I almost feel bad for him, almost.
I look down at her other equally frail hand and see her index finger twitch slightly. I rush to that hand and hold it before saying, "hello? Y/N? Can you hear me??" Her finger twitches again, she can hear me.

To Be Continued...

(Sigh.....i don't even know what to say. Hi I guess it's only been like 2 months :/ I'm so so sorry for being you know um dead and for this being so extremely short but I've recently been grieving the loss of my close friends mother and I've also been deathly ill with a cough for 2 weeks now and it's just got worse and I've also had my exams that determine if I get into my GCSE classes (if your American I think it's the same as SATs I'm not 100% sure) and what level I'll be in those classes so I've been really stressed out lately. I also had a creative writing project in English that took quite some time to complete but if you want to read that let me know I might post it and yeah that's the tea I hope you all understand that it's been a very difficult time but I will honestly do my best. I would like to thank any new sisters who have joined this fic community don't be afraid to leave feedback good or constructive criticism it'll help me improve my writing performance! Once again thank you for being patient and I hope this fulfilled even a little bit of your hunger to read on and yeah I'm so sorry for being gone ily thank u for supporting me x ❤️ ~ author-nim)