4 a.m. ☞ dt

1.25 - grayson

4 a.m.
1.25 - grayson

it's only been minutes after i had concluded charlie was doing this to help me, but again i was falling into a pit of doubt. i was spiraling into rage. what if charlie left me for him? i've never even had a girlfriend before and then she could just leave me for my twin brother.

what's so great about him, anyways? we looked almost the same and had awfully similar voices. he's a douchebag. he is selfish and only thinks for himself. he has gotten everything his entire life, so what is it? why is he the superior twin? why did dad like him more? he wouldn't have hit ethan. not his prized son. not the football captain. not the one with all the friends. not the one who everyone who'd ever met him loved.

but, as is always has been, it was just me. alone. my charlie would want him by the end of the night. but it wasn't fair. she was mine. the only one who had ever paid attention to the kid no one ever knew existed. the "oh, ethan's brother?" of northtown high. she probably didn't love me how i loved her, but i knew she cared about me. she was an angel. she wouldn't use me, but i'm assured that if there was someone better she'd leave me. someone like ethan.

i began pacing around the small motel room, turning off the t.v. i had turned on to distract me and throwing the remote on the bed.

she was mine, wasn't she? she's even said it herself. yours, grayson, yours. that's what she told me. with no luck of dulling my swirling mind, i pull out my notebook i had stashed up underneath my bed.

april 7th, 2018

"charlie is everything to me. her beautiful brown locks and her stunning grey eyes, her slim-fit body and her beautiful personality was all i needed to get through this life. charlie was the answer to the "what is the point?" question. her love was my purpose. she was mine. and as far as i am concerned, i'll never let her go. nothing would take her from me. not ethan. not anyone."

the entry was short but suffice. everything i was thinking i had transferred over and i was determined. he wouldn't take her from me. she loves me. there's nothing he could even do to take her from me. i have been a good kid my whole life. i've made no mistakes. it's him she should worry about, if she were to go after him.

but she won't. i know my charlie. she will not do that. she wouldn't betray me. and i'll repay her the same way. i would never betray her. my angel.  but ethan... my own twin brother, he's the devil. the poor thing will be sucked in with his powers. my charlotte could transform into persephone, trapped with her hades. my charlotte wouldn't be kept like that.

a/n
um hi i wanna die

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he won't be crazy the whole time i swear