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"I miss you."
gently, I rested my head on my arm as if it was a pillow while I watched the busy city that was covered with snow through the glass window. the lights from afar looked amazing, as though they were stars from the night sky. "I miss you too, mum..." I sighed.
"how's my little girl?" she asked with her soft voice— but oddly, her voice was rather quiet than usual. "when are you going to visit us, sweetheart?" I wiped away the tear that fell from my eye, and quickly I blinked my eyes to distract myself from crying.
I faked a smile as if she could see me through the phone, "I don't know, mum. yoongi has been busier," I told her and she just replied a breathless okay. "I promise to come before christmas eve!"
"can't you come alone tomorrow?"
my smile faded once I heard her— my mum would always back away if I said I couldn't, she would understand and said marriage come first. however that night, she sounded unusual. "is something wrong, mum?" I worriedly asked, but I received a little chuckle through the line.
I could imagine her smiling so weakly yet so beautifully, "I just want to look at my daughter, silly." I was convinced with her explanation, so I just chuckled too and then I told her that I would ask permission from yoongi. "please come, I miss you, kang jihyun," she whispered slowly.
"mum," I called her out, "I love you," I said it at the pace as she did, I wanted her to listen clearly and I wanted her to know that I truly love her— when I was young, sitting beside her was the least I wanted to do. I used to want to stay away from her, because all she do was nagging.
despite her quiet voice, she was just like any mother— cranky and perfectionist. as I grew older, living in my own apartment during college, I realised what she really meant to me. she wasn't just my mother, she was my best friend that knew everything about me.
"I love you so much, mum."
I would call her every night even though she was sleepy beside my dad, and then we would talk about boys. she loves to talk about boys that appeared in my life and I would love to brag about myself because of boys approaching.
"I love you too, my little child."
we ended the call right after I heard the digital lock made a sound as yoongi was finally home. I looked at my mum's contact on my phone screen and then a tear dropped— I did ask yoongi to let me visit my parents, but he would always refuse.
"darling, you alright?" I was startled once I heard his voice, so I wiped the tears and lifted my head to look at him— the man that had cold eyes and pale skin, beautiful like a porcelain.
I flashed an assuring smile, "of course I am," I lied as I stood up and approached him. "you're pretty late today, have you eaten?" I let my hand caress his freezing cheek, "it must be cold outside."
he placed his hand against mine, "not at all, darling. I have eaten, have you?" I was glad that he had eaten because I hadn't enter the kitchen since afternoon. I nodded my head, "alright, I'm going to take a shower now."
while he was in the shower, I was thinking of words to say. I really wanted to visit my parents; it had been 6 months since we last meet. I just wanted to check if my mum was really fine, because truthfully, after listening to her voice, she made me worry.
"darling, are you sure that you're alright?" I nodded my head once more without even looking at him as I was still in deep thoughts. "alright then," he chuckled lowly, "there's something I need to tell you—"
"can I go visit my mum tomorrow?"
both of us were in silence. he was still shirtless and I was sitting on the bed, looking directly into his eyes. while he just stared at me like he was waiting for me to laugh and tell him that I was joking.
"please?"
"how many times do I have to tell you, darling? I said no." his voice was deep but it sounded so heavy that it brought shivers down my spine. "I am still busy at work and if I just let you go, I'm scared that something bad will happen to you."
I shut my eyes as a sigh escaped, "please just once! I'll be alright, I promise!" but he would never listen, "I'll bring my friend—"
"but what if something bad will happen with you and your friend too?"
I tried to hold in my tears so I felt the pain in my throat as I swallowed it, "please! I just want to check her if she's alright. she called me earlier, she said she wanted to see me—"
he wore his sweater and threw the towel on the laundry basket, "no. kang jihyun, I said no!" it was very rare to hear him raise his voice and call me by my name. "I don't want you to leave me!"
"I just want to see my mum!"
he sat down in front of me and cupped my cheeks, my eyes were already watery and when he pressed his lips on my forehead I had lost it. I couldn't hold in the tears anymore, as a sob finally escaped, "I said, no."
I was pulled into his hug. he tried to calm me down while stroking my hair. so I closed my eyes and hoped that if he could at least change his mind or rearrange his schedule for me. but he didn't even say anything and he just hugged me until I was slowly being laid on the bed.
he lied beside me with his arms still wrapping around me, "I was saying," he whispered, "I have something to tell you." I didn't respond to him, not even a hum. "we have a new managing director and I was so surprised to see who it was."
"who was it?" I whispered, I swore that I couldn't even hear my voice— out of a sudden, I remembered my mum again, I remembered her voice that was close to my ears, there was something wrong.
"kim jiae."
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hi, I actually hope this chapter can make you guys teary because I cried while writing thissss, so it's boring to cry alone :( anyway, I hope you guys are curious for more! please please please drop drop your comments!
