The Disrespectful Side Chick

Progress

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3 months & 18 days later....

Luna

It's been two weeks since I've saw Zo. He's been trying to see me and talk to me but every since I started therapy all of those feelings I had about him raping me came rushing back. Almost like someone throwing something at my face and me failing to Dodge it. It's been hard especially with this pregnancy and my case. My blood pressure goes up randomly sometimes and my mom tells me it's because I'm stressed but how can I not be. My dad managed to get a deal out of the prosecutor but Jake's mom didn't agree with it. The first deal was house aresst for the remainder of my pregnancy, 1 year community service, mandatory anger management for 6 months and 4 years probation... Now it's 2 to 5 in a state prison a 50 thousand dollar fine and 3 years probation. I'm completely overwhelmed and at a lost for words when it comes to everything I'm going through. I haven't even spoke to any of my sister's since that whole fiasco in the hospital. My mom has tried to get us to talk but I refuse to let them make this situation any worse then it already is. I've been trying to accept my consequences, I understand what I did was wrong but how can I go to jail with a baby on the way. I'll miss 2 years of my baby's life maybe more if I'm not on good behavior. If it weren't for my mom I don't know what I would have done to get out of this situation I'm just hoping my dad can figure it out... I need him more then I've ever needed him.

"Dad are you looking?" I asked as my doctor moved the wand around my belly.

"Yes I am"

"Gosh I want to know now" I said anxious to find out if it was a boy or girl. Both my dad and the doctor were silent. I wanted to take off my blind fold so bad. "What is it!?" I blurted in excitement

"You'll have to wait until tomorrow night" my dad Chuckled as the doctor finished.

"Okay Luna, baby is looking very very healthy and strong but I need you to keep that blood pressure down it's a little high today"

"Is it really?" I sighed

"Yes.. it is"

"I'm sorry there's just so much going on"

"Have you tried a little get away... Maybe for a couple days that might help"

"Thanks doctor dillar... Maybe I'll try that"

"Alright I'll see you in a month"

"That long?"

"Yup.. unless something happens or you're feeling sick then you come in right away"

"Okay.. thank you" I smiled as I pulled my shirt down "so tell me dad!" I said trying to get him to snitch

"Nope and I'm not telling your mom either she can't keep a secret if she tried"

"I know that's why I told her she couldn't come.. ugh I'm anxious"

"What do you want it to be?" He asked

"I don't know.. haha I mean I guess it doesn't really matter I'm just excited to think of names.. and buy clothes"

"Well you'll find out in a few hours... Just be patient"

"I'll try... Have you talked to that prosecutor?"

"Everyday baby girl"

"Any changes?"

"No.. she won't budge"

"Dad what are we going to do?" My voice cracked as I felt my eyes fill with tears.