The Disrespectful Side Chick

The blues

The blues: feelings of melancholy, sadness, or depression.

Mahadi

"Hey Mahadi!" Jenna yelled as I walked out of my chem class.

"Hey, wassup" I replied trying not to be irritated. She knows I don't like her.

"Did you get the Wednesdays notes from mr Sykes class?"

"I did" I slightly rolled my eyes.

"Look I know we don't get along but I need those notes and everyone else pretty much told me no"

"Well maybe if you weren't such a bitch they would give them to you" I shrugged my shoulders.

"So it's a no?"

"You're correct, have a good day"

"Mahadi wait"

"Why?"

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I spread that rumor okay"

"wowww, you do have the ability to apologize. Ain't that some shit. Apology not accepted. You're lucky I'm not dragging your ass down this hall but I refuse to give you that much power over me"

"Smchh... come on Mahadi please, I need to pass the next exam"

"Read the book. Good luck" I walked away fed up with her antics. She only apologized for some dumb ass notes.

It's because of her that I have to awkwardly walked down these halls. She told everyone that jake dumped me for my sister because my vagina stinks. Now everyone walks by me calling me fishy and she want me to give her my notes. Yeah that would have never happened and the only reason she even made up that rumor was because she wanted Jahsir. Everyone wanted to the new boy but guess who he wanted. Yup me. Misses fishy. Ain't that some shit.

"Maha" I heard a familiar voice, his arms wrapping around me.

"Hey, you"

"I missed you all day, why didnt you meet up with me at lunch?"

"I met with my guidance counselor, sorry"

"What's wrong?" He gently touched my face.

"I just don't want to be here. In this school, at home.. with my mom. I rather move with my dad and finish school at North tech"

"North tech? that's almost 1 hour from here. I thought we were making shit official soon?"

"I never said that Jah, I said maybe it could lead to that. I don't know. I have alot going on right now"

"I dont get you. I've been here for you since the day we met. When I started here, I didn't like no one in this school but it was something about you. I didn't push up, we became friends and that changed the night you kissed me. Now you about to up and leave? You just told me you loved me last night"

"I do but I didn't mean it like that"

"The fuck you mean you didnt mean it like that? I love you maha. I meant that. I didnt say it because you did. I've been wanting to tell you"

"Its only been a few months since we've been talking and I dont feel like getting my heart broken again, I dont fucking feel like it ! Okay!?"

"Whoa, I would never break your heart" he grabbed my hand.

"Stop it, just leave me alone"

"Mahadi dont walk away from me" he blurted as I continued to walk away.

I didn't look back, I didn't feel bad, I felt lost. Every since we found out my dad cheated there's been nothing but sadness hovering over our house. A home I grew up loving is now I home I hate and no one seems to understand that. It's like I'm a blur to everyone around me besides jah and I hate that I dont love him the way he loves me. Our relationship really grew out of nowhere but it's wrong timing. The last thing I can think about is a boy friend. I'm failing one of my classes and I can't focus on any my papers because all I hear at home is the babies crying. If it's not the babies then its adorn, if it's not adorn then it's my mom and when its finally quiet 5 in the morning I'm up crying because I haven't got one lick of sleep. Mentally I'm not okay and I know it. My sisters use to be my back bone, my mom use to be my diary. Now it's a mess, a mess I dont want to be apart of.