The Alpha's Destiny (COMPLETED)

CH 16 - Night terrors

Chapter 16 – Night terrors

It was the best sleep I'd had for a long time. I couldn't bring myself to fully forgive Cody, because even though my wolf longed for him he still had wounds he needed to let heal. I couldn't blame him for what he went through in my absence and somewhere inside of me, the old girl I used to be had already forgiven him. But I hadn't, not yet at least.

I needed Cody and being away from him physically and mentally hurt me but being with him also brought the pain of remembering the most awful times down in the dark.

I needed a rope to be pulled out of my inner pit, but nobody was in sight to even lend a hand.

I was still safely tucked into Cody's arms when I felt him stir behind me. I wriggled free of his grasp, so I could turn around to face him.

"Do you still hate me?" He asks. His face holds pain and sorrow and it makes my heart ache to think of how hard it must have been on him too. It took a toll on my wolf not being with Cody for three years but in these recent weeks, it hurt her, even more, to know it was our doing that he wasn't with us.

"I never hated you," I whisper I turn my face into the pillow to hide the pink that tinges my cheeks. I haven't felt the need to express myself for so long that doing it now makes me feel vulnerable.

I haven't slept a wink in the last few weeks and even before that I would wake from a restless sleep sweating and breathing heavily. My wolf seemed at peace, but my brain was flying over a hundred miles a minute.

"I can't believe you're alive." He whispers into the crown of my head and his hot breath caresses my cheek and sends tingles down my spine. I refrained from saying that I couldn't believe it either because it seemed like a 'mood kill'.

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"If it isn't my daughters' little mate," I growled at my father, the disrespect evident in his tone, my wolf was ready to kill and wanted blood, his blood.

"Stay away from us." I seethed, and my father just laughed wickedly, his eyes were black, and he looked like a zombie. His features are disgusting, and his once handsome face is ruined.

"Don't worry we'll fix you up soon enough." He grinned like a maniac at me. "There are other ways to show you the true evil in this world." My hands were clenched so tightly I was cutting the skin of my palms

"Don't come near me." I tried to sound strong, but my voice was failing me, and fear was eating away at my mind like a parasite.

"Darling come show your daughter what happens if you don't listen." My father called, and soft footsteps padded through the dark shadows.

My mother stepped out and her beautiful face was hideous. Her eyes were carved out and her mouth had been sewn up in a smile. I stood in pure shock as she went to my father and he kissed her head.

"See your mother is all fixed and she'll help me do the same to you." I was screaming as he came closer to me. I thrashed and kicked at him but he just kept smiling at me and whispering that I would be fixed soon.

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"Rose!" A voice broke through my dream and I woke up to find Cody looking down at me. His hands were pinning my arms down and he was using his body to trap my legs.

I was hot and sweaty, and the bed was a mess, sheets strewn across the floor like I had tossed and turned so much I had ripped apart the bed.

"I-I." My voice was broken and raw and I couldn't get out the words I wanted to speak so I lay there trying to control my breathing.

"Hey, it's okay it was just a dream." Cody wrapped me up in his arms and I steadied my breathing but listening to his calm breaths.

"I'm sorry." I croaked out when I could finally speak. I had these dreams every night but they never involved Cody and the fear of him being around my father made everything worse.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked, and I knew that if I say no, he'll leave it be and not push me for answers but I can't bring myself to speak about my terrors yet so I just shake my head and bury it in the pillow.

"I'm so sorry I left you alone all these years." He sounded as broken and hurt as I do and it made me want to break down crying and explain everything but something inside of me pushed back against that weak part and wouldn't let me be that vulnerable.

"It wasn't your fault and one day I will explain but I need to overcome my fears before I can speak them," I tell him sincerely. "These are demons I must face on my own." That was the truth, this was something only I could overcome with time.

We lay there, and Cody's hands played with strands of my hair. The calming touch sending shivers through my body. I felt safe, with him by my side I felt untouchable but when I slept, I felt afraid and weak, dreams were the only time my father could reach me.

I had always thought my parents were dead and I was alone in this world, but I have a brother out there somewhere, another thing I need to sort out. I now wish that my parents really were dead. I'm not sure what happened to them, but my father is insane, and my poor mother is so brainwashed by him that she doesn't see what he's doing to our family. I want to save her but killing my father would kill her and I couldn't watch my mother die from grief.

As horrible as my life is, I can't bring myself to wish for death because in truth I do not want to die. I used to, but this is the first time I can truthfully tell myself that there are other solutions than death.

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Hope you enjoy the chapter, it's not one of my favourites and I find it a bit cheesy and too fictional so I will probably rewrite it if I can be bothered.

Enjoy, vote, comment, that stuff, thanks,

Avery <3