My sweetie (Eddsworld)

11. Loving him, but hurting him

The picture above is mine! Sorry, I was just bored.

No one's POV:

Edd and Matt were both quiet while Tom was mumbling something under his breath. They didn't want to argue, it just happened somehow. Ever since Tord became...well...a small kid, everyone was acting strange. They seemed to be growing distant.

And Tord, Tord noticed it. He felt like it was his fault. He loved all of them and he was sure they loved him. But that was the problem. They were fighting because of him, he didn't want things to be like this. And he wasn't a bad kid, it was not his fault at all!

"So..." Edd spoke, getting Matt and Tom's attention. "We're good now?" Tom sighed. "Yeah, I guess. I'm sorry, guys. And you, To-" It was then when they all realized Tord was not there anymore.

Edd and Matt called for him, but Tord didn't come back. He went outside a while ago, he was by himself and he was getting farther away from the house. The stuffed bear was the only thing he had as he stared at his feet. He met a few people that were giving him weird looks, confused or didn't look at him at all. One woman even asked him if he was lost, but he just shook his head and continued.

After a while, he started feeling lonely, but didn't want to head back home, he was afraid that they were still fighting. And he wasn't just going to stand there, watching and listening to every mean word they said to each other, no way.

He was talking to Tomee bear, as if he was his therapist or something. He was telling him how he felt and the bear didn't say a word. 'Finally someone who actually doesn't complain about my problem and listens.' Tord thought to himself with a small smile. He hugged Tomee close, he was his best friend and instantly felt less alone.

The three on the other side were freaking out slowly since they couldn't find Tord in the house. Edd and Matt still thought he was in the house while Tom thought he was outside. So he went to search for him.

After an hour of long and tiring searching, he saw him in the park, sitting on a bench. It seemed like he was singing to Tomee bear. Tom saw that small tears started to trickle down his cheeks which made Tom feel kinda guilty. He listened to the lyrics of the song.

"Once again, it's almost christmas, you are no longer strong. I know you love him when you're lying, that he would never try to harm you. Sorry, can't stop myself from loving, but that's not what he's gonna do..." Tord sang which made Tom smile. "He gave you a kiss....." Tord went silent for a while and Tom was about to come and get him when he started singing again.

"But it's not what it seems, he was just playing around and now he's broken your heart... I was trying to warn you he was trying to use you, if you don't think I'm right, try to remember that night..." Tord cried more as he held onto Tomee. Tom was suprised, he never heard this song before.

"Through your frozen tears, you didn't see his lies. He got too close, then you were trapped in his arms. And he lied again, when he dried your tears. His heart has always been so cold...and he gave you a kiss..." Tord finished and wiped away his tears.

(The song was made by my greatest sister in the world! The lyrics are beautiful, the whole song is awesome! Here, check her out, her voice is perfect. I love her very much..)

Tom sighed, walking up to Tord. When he noticed him, he yelped and hugged Tomee closer, staring up at Tom. Tom smiled at him. "I finally found you, Tordie."

Tom's POV:

He calmed down a little and sighed. "I'm sorry.." He apologized. I carefully took his hand. "It's okay. But we were really worried about you." My smile faded and he looked away. "Let's go home now, okay?" He just nodded in responce and we walked back home.

Tord was quiet for the whole time on the way back. His hand was shaking, I noticed it and smiled at him. I petted his hair, but that didn't help much either. Tord seemed a bit scared of me. It kinda made me feel bad since I didn't know what was wrong or why he left the house without saying anything. Somebody could hurt him out here!

I asked Tord about it. "Tord, why did you leave?" He looked down. "I was scared..." And I was confused. "Scared of what?" He looked back up at me. "Of you fighting." He whispered, his voice shaking. That made me stop walking. He stopped too.

He shut his eyes, hugging Tomee bear close. Soon, I heard soft sobbing coming from him. I kneeled down beside him and pulled him into a hug in a protective manner. He hugged me back hesitantly and cried into my chest. I didn't realize us fighting was hurting him.

"I'm sorry, Tord... I should've known..." I said. He didn't answer. A thought in my head was telling me that Tord was actually really important to me. I really felt like his father... Kinda... Maybe it was true. After all, I just hugged TORD. I never in my entire life thought I would do such thing.

I accepted the fact that Tord loved me and I loved him as my own son. I started caring about him. I smiled at that. But there was still another thought in my head.. It maybe was quieter than the other ones, but I could still hear it in the back of my head, reminding me of the truth...

Tord was not a kid... At least, he shouldn't be. He was an adult before, that strange gun just made him like this.. He was not like this before and he was not truly a kid. But I tried to ignore that voice, who kept repeating this to me over and over again, not letting me forget about the fact he normally hated me.

But whatever! Tord was maybe an adult before, but he was a kid now! And we didn't even know, how to turn him back to his old self, if it was even possible. So it wasn't a problem for now. For now..

I pushed the voice aside, not letting it bother me for a while and focused on Tord again. He stopped crying, but was still holding onto me tightly. I didn't want to let go of him so I just carefully picked him up and headed back home where Edd and Matt were waiting for us impatiently.

"There you are!!" Edd yelled, grinning as he took Tord and hugged him. Tord whined, but hugged him back. Matt smiled. "You're okay, Tordle!" He laughed. I crossed my arms and looked away when the three laughed. Tord looked happy while tightening the hug. Edd chuckled when Tord suddenly looked up at him and kissed his cheek.

It took Edd by suprise, but when he snapped out of it, he started dancing around with Matt and Tord still in his arms...while I watched them laughing and enjoying this moment. It made me feel a bit sad inside. I still didn't know, why....but I felt another emotion... Which one, you ask?

...Jealousy...