Fixing the Mistake?

Chapter 5

"What the hell Spencer!" I yell after pushing him away. Why does he possibly think he can kiss me?

He looks shocked for a moment, and then a look of desire crosses his face. "I still want you and love you Aria. After everything that's happened, I can't lose you at all, I can't go through this again. I was not planning on kissing you yet, but you just looked so beautiful laughing and saying you love me. Yes I know you said it so I would stop, but I love you and heading that just screwed with my head and I needed to kiss you. I'm not going to apologize for it, but I shouldn't have done it without you being ready for it. But I'm not giving you up, and I will be doing everything I can for you to give me a chance again. I knew leaving in Spain I had lost that chance, but I did that to respect your parents and to get those slime balls who think they have any right to you. I will do anything for you Aria, and you better be ready because I'm here to fight." Spencer exclaims, and immediately leaves me in the room to absorb everything he said.

He seemed so much more like the old Spencer. I thought for a minute the old, dominant guy was gone, but he's still there. I love and miss him, I just don't trust him. If he says he's going to fight, I'm not going to stop him, but he has some work to do to get me to trust him. I can't go through a relationship without trust, and I thought we did in our marriage. I have seen the photo and I know it was seen as real because it was, it just wasn't me. Nobody knew I had an identical twin, and it did make me seem like a liar because she's my doppelgänger, and that whole thing sucked. But I probably would have done the same if the circumstances were reversed.

This whole situation is just fucked up. The only good that came from this is having my twin with me. I just want to fight right now.

With that thought in mind, I decide to look for my twin to see if she wants to train and if Michael could show us where to go.

I go back to the room where Kayla was in earlier, knowing that those two probably needed alone time to talk. And I was right, because when I walked into the room I see the two of them cuddling in bed.

"Hey Aria, what's up?" Michael asks as soon as he sees me. Kayla is just staring at me, assessing the look I have on my face.

"Hey guys, Kayla, do you want to train with me now?" I ask, hoping she knows I need to talk.

She gets the point immediately and starts to get out of bed to get changed. "Yeah just give me a sec to change, Michael can you show us the way." In which he answers with a yes.

"Solid, I'm going to go change I will meet you in the living room." I tell them before leaving the room.

I had a feeling Spencer already stocked the closet in my room, and I was right. I change into a purple tie dye sports bra and black workout leggings. I throw my hair up into a quick pony and go down to meet the two love birds.

The gym seems to be way underground, and I knew it was probably because this is where we will all be the majority of the time. Kayla and I know that we aren't leaving any safe places until we think we are at a good enough point to defend ourselves and others in public.

Michael leaves us to do our business and we start stretching.

"So you and Michael are good?" I ask Kayla, knowing that their situation is different than Spencer's and mine.

She has a small smile on her face, "I mean, it's still a bit of a struggle with everything that has happened but there was just too many unknown things that happened that just blind sighted everything. We love each other, and so we are fighting for that. We made a deal where we need to talk everything through instead of just jumping the gun on things. I can't necessarily blame him for what has happened, at least not completely. I mean if the situation of him having a twin and not knowing they were adopted happened, I would have thought he was cheating with the proof. We just need to talk through everything after all that has happened. And we understand so much more of each other. So yeah, I'd say we're good." She finishes with a determined look on her face.

What she said made a lot of sense to me. And had a lot to do what I was thinking about. I mean she's right, there were a lot of unknowns, i just don't know how she's so open to getting hurt again.

"I see that look Aria. The only difference between mine and your situation is the marriage part. Our hurts are what's different. We were both betrayed, but mine was more that he didn't want to fight for me, which for a while it truly felt like. But our solution is talking and fighting for each other now. Spencer went out of his way to hurt you, with June and then seeing you at the club and trying to figuring out why you did that to him. He wanted you to feel the pain that he did. Deep down he wanted this to all be false, Hell he was going out of his way to still see you because he missed you in a fucked up way. You lost trust because of that, which is how it's different. Michael was mad, but Spencer rebelled because he saw something that was real, just not you. I would probably feel the same conflicted way as you if our situations were reversed, but in a fucked up way, Spencer was doing that to show how much the love he has for you hurt him. I think you guys really need to talk." Kayla finishes, making a lot of good points.

"Think about what I said, but let's start training."