Broken Wings

Chapter 1

" I've told you about the one thing that hurts me the most in this life and guess what ?? You did it Ben !!"
I knew that tears were waiting for my permission to come out but I won't allow them to , at least not in front of him .I am stronger than that , that's what I keep telling myself  but not totally sure how true is that .
I  took my bag left him the house keys on the counter and before he could say anything, I slammed the door and left.

It is very hard to express my feelings at the moment  , two days ago i was saying goodbye to my beautiful mother who lost her battle against cancer and today i am leaving my fiancé to whom i was supposed to get married in few months .
They say things happen for a reason but I still could not find  that reason somehow . I sat in my car for about ten minutes having no idea where to go . My home doesn't feel like home anymore after my mom was gone , we were always together she was more like a best friend, to me , she was a single mother , my dad left her the moment he knew she was pregnant but she was strong , she played her role and my "supposed to be father's "  role perfectly .

The one and only positive thing about people dying from cancer  is that deep inside , no matter how unbearable the pain is , you know that this person is going to rest now . My mom deserves not to be in pain anymore. I am sure that she is in a much better place now .

And I just broke up with the one I once thought he'll be the father of my kids . The one I trusted and believed that he was never going to hurt me . Ben was everything to me , the one I loved the most , we've been together for about  three years and just when we decided that things should get serious , he cheated on me , the day before my mother died ,I was  in the hospital desperate while he was screwing someone else ! I don't  care if it was only for one night , I am very sure that the one who cheats once will cheat twice , I think this time he lost me forever .

My thoughts were interrupted when my phone rang , I felt  a bit relieved when I saw that Stacey   , my childhood bestie was calling :

" how is my little butterfly feeling right now ?"

" Much better" , I said , trying to sound as normal as I could .

" I know how heartbroken you are , but trust me Liz , everything is gonna be okay , that jerk is gonna pay hard for what he did  , time will heal you trust me ..let's just talk about something else... uhmm are you ready to start your first acting class tomorrow? !
I am sooo  excited I can't believe that finally we're doing what we always wanted to do !!

"Yes , I've been waiting for this class since forever " I replied.

" perfecto  Lisa , see you tomorrow at 10 , please call me if you need anything! Love you.

" I love you more Stace " I hang up and started driving .

Stacey and I are more like sisters , we spent all our childhood together and we've always dreamed about becoming actresses in the future , we used to create our own scenes and music videos  , our personalities however are very different I am more of a quiet person , an introvert you can say , she's full of life and doesn't mind socializing all day long , that's why maybe our friendship is that strong because we're totally not alike .

Tomorrow I think will be the beginning of a new chapter of my life . I am done with all the drama and sadness , I still have hope , I feel like something good is waiting for me and I do have faith that God will always be by side now that my mom is gone .

As they say " After the rain comes a beautiful rainbow " .