Broken Wings

Chapter 9

I can't believe it's already Monday, last week went very fast . I've spent three  days in bed  , never been that sick since I was born , then worked full time on weekends till I could no longer feel my legs but i was so happy , I
needed  some distraction from everything I went through  lately , I am healing and I am proud of myself .

I am getting used to the absence of my mom , they say pain will never go away but you get used to it . she won't ever leave my mind and heart .
The more time passes the more I realize how right I was when I decided to leave Ben maybe and sometimes I think that maybe I was with him because I was only afraid of being lonely . Especially when my mom was sick .

The only thing that I couldn't get rid off was him , Mr Alexander, I don't know why maybe because I needed to understand why have I felt like that when I was with him in the car  or maybe because he's so handsome or simply because I am feeling lonely  these days and will surely forget about him once he shows me that he's not interested and he did all that because he was feeling sorry for me , And all that was only in my mind .

I made sure to leave home early this time so I can be at school on time , I am not sure if the teacher was going to be in a bad or good mood I said to myself. Let's stay on the safe side .

I met Stacey  in the hallway and we sat next to each other in the class waiting for Mr Alexander to come . I was pretending all the time that I am busy writing or reading something, because I am not sure how will I be acting whenever our eyes meet .

"The teacher is here " whispered Stacey .

I was under the table , searching for a pen that I dropped on purpose , just to escape from him . I can smell his cologne from where I am.

" Good morning everyone, I hope you all had a beautiful weekend " .
I almost forgot how his voice sounded  like , it was very caring, as if he means every single word he's saying . I tried slowly to raise my head and sit properly again without any attention. I couldn't look at him ,kept my eyes on the book that was on my table maybe I was shy . How can I look at him after what happened last time ? A week ago he was wiping my tears and telling me how innocent my eyes are .

" Today's lesson is going to be about .... He stopped talking .

I thought maybe he got a phone call or something. Just when I decided to look and see what was happening. I saw his eyes looking straight at me , our eyes met , my heart is going to explode from beating so  fast . Didn't know what to do , are we having a moment ? Is he going to say something ?
I can see Stacey looking at me as if she's waiting for an explanation that I don't have.

" Ahem... Sorry  , so today's lesson is going to be about how you can act and communicate while dancing " .

The students got excited for a moment while I was still consuming what had happened seconds ago .
My phone vibrated, a message from Stacey , i opened it secretly:

" what was that about? "

what am I going to reply, I myself have no answer for this .

" I have no idea " I replied .

And put my phone back and looked at her confused.