Broken Wings

Chapter 21

Two weeks have passed since I last saw him , it was a wise decision to switch classes , I changed my whole work schedule because of him but I am proud of what I did .The days were going really fast between work and school , Ben and I are still in the friends zone , I am still not ready to trust him again and I am giving myself time to heal from everything I went through the last month .

Some nights I do think about Alexander , especially that day in the office
When we kissed , I remember his words , his touch . How can all that be just pity?  His last words cant just get out of my mind , it's true they hurt but they gave me a reason to stop thinking about him .

Stacey blamed me a bit when she knew that I switched classes but I told her that the night schedule works better for me since they need me day shifts at work . I lied . But I was not ready yet to tell her the truth especially now that everything I felt for him was only from my side .

My favorite season of the year was getting closer , but Christmas this year doesn't have the same taste .
Ben , however , was planning to make it better than every year . I am not  so sure why Ben is being extremely good to me these days but I am definitely liking it . I don't know what could've happened to me without him and Stacey .Although she isn't very happy about my relationship with Ben but as long as it making me somehow happy she's with it.

Ben wanted  me to meet him at Walmart after work so we can shop for a new Christmas tree. This gives a reason to  finish work as fast as I could so we can have more time  to shop before my class starts.

I clocked out at 2 , grabbed my coat and bag and walked to Walmart . Ben was already there waiting for me , he looked so cute wearing his Santa hat and holding a cart . I wish we can go back a year ago when everything was going great between me and him , and my mom was still there.
But no  drama today , this is a beautiful day and I am going to buy the prettiest Christmas decoration .

we found almost everything that we need , was happy that we made it perfectly on time . We agreed that while I am waiting for my turn at the register he'll be buying us some Big Macs since McDonald's is inside Walmart and it was always our favorite.
The line at the register was a bit long , but it's nothing unfamiliar during Christmas  season , I usually love people watching especially when there is an occasion , I love seeing them happy and excited.
For example, the old lady in front of me is wearing a red Santa shirt while her husband , who's about her age is wearing a Santa tie and they're both trying to read the instructions on a toy , apparently it's for their nephew and laughing together I have no idea why , but seeing them that happy put a smile on my face.

On my right , a 7 or 8 years old boy is sitting on the floor trying hardly to pick something from the  candies shelf , probably his parents won't let him pick more than one .I actually miss these days when my hardest decision was what candy should i pick .

" Carl !! Where were you , I've been looking for you everywhere ".

My body froze at the sound of the voice , for a second I thought that I was hallucinating but no , that's him , his voice. I looked down , don't know why but didn't want him to see me. I am not ready for that.

" Sorry daddy, it's just hard to pick only one thing " the little boy said .

Isn't it weird that the boy I was just looking at , turned to be Alexander's son ?

I am still pretending that I am looking at my feet , I hope they leave soon .

" Don't  worry baby , I was scared that's all . Keep searching I'll be at this registry , number 12 okay ? Come back whenever you're done .. and be careful not to talk to
strangers."

I miss his voice , I love how mature he is and how handsome he always looks.
A part of me wants to be hidden under the seventh ground and the other part wants to talk to him , see how he's doing .

His last words were still stuck on my mind. " I felt bad about hurting you that's why I kissed you ..." that feeling of pity he showed me ripped me off.

" Lisaaaaaaaa " . No Ben you cannot do that while I am trying to hide , I said to myself.

I looked at Ben who was standing almost at the end of the store trying to know why the hell was he screaming like that.
" check your phone " he shouted.

I looked at my phone while my legs were trembling , what if Alexander heard him and recognized me ? I am not ready to talk to him !

" heyyyy  i've been trying to call you ! Are you okay ??! Wanted to know if you need any dessert ? "

" I am sorry Ben I didn't pay attention to my phone , no thank you i am good :) "

I don't know how am I able to think about desserts and he's right behind me . I kept pretending that i am typing even after the message has been sent , trying to keep myself busy when a warm hand landed on my shoulder .
" Elizabeth? " .