The tension in the apartment was thick and Hercules was torn. It was in his better judgment to keep John and Alex away from each other but they were both in dire need of his attention, the two went from closed off to needy in the blink of an eye.
John being the lesser affectionate of the bunch he usually savored these moments but he couldn't help but feel as though Alex was being neglected.
"I jus wanna see him...say 'm sorry"John mumbled against Hercules chest. He was curled up in the fetal position gripping onto Herc's shirt so tightly his hands were shaking. He wasn't sure if he was crying anymore, he didn't even have the energy to feel weak. He knew Herc's arms were safe and that's all he needed.
Hercules sighed and rubbed Johns back gently rocking him.
"You had a long morning and you should go back to sleep"he said.
"Alright daddy"John said with a twinge of aggravation to his tone.
"I can't believe even after a blackout you still find it in you to be sarcastic"
"You'd be surprised at the things I can do after a blackout"he mumbled. Although it was said casually it didn't sit right with him.
"John how many blackouts have you had in the last few months?"he asked.
"I dunno...maybe three...four?"He slurred.
That was at least once in the last few months, John's ability to keep a poker face was insane. At this point he could be described as a functioning alcoholic.
"I'm going to make an appointment to see your therapist next week, no if's,but's or I'll fucking kill you's"he said sternly.
"Fine"John said.
Fine? This was worse than Hercules thought, he wasn't even fighting it. The hands that were so tightly gripping his shirt fell into his lap as the hazel eyes of his lover closed and his breath slowed.
He was asleep.
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The horizon and the balcony
FanfictionA poly hamilsquad story of Alexander's obsession with their apartments balcony, John coming to terms with himself and Hercules and Lafayette never catching a break.
