After a year of celibacy, twenty-eight-year-old Los Angeles native Elijah Abrams decides he's ready to try being in a relationship again. In the span of a week, he meets three interesting---albeit universally different---men that he considers potent...
I woke up to the sound of H.E.R.'s "Focus" playing on my clock radio; which meant it was seven a.m. since I'd set the alarm for that time. Instead of hitting the off button, I turned the volume down a little because I was definitely in the mood to hear the song after the night I'd spent with Zade. Even though it didn't go as well as I thought it would have, cheering him up with sex made up for everything that went so damn wrong. When I turned over in bed to wake him up, I noticed he wasn't there. I sat up and that's when I spotted his foot on the floor in front of my bed. I immediately jumped out of bed to see he was unconscious on the floor. His lips had turned a purplish-blue color and he wasn't moving at all.
"Oh my God!" I screamed as I got down on the floor beside him and shook him. "Zade, wake up! Baby, please wake up! Zade!"
I almost went into full panic mode but quickly pulled myself together. I hurried over to my phone and dialed 911. I'd never been so scared in my entire life. As the 911 operator talked me through several crucial steps, I did my best to keep from going into shock. How did it happen? Why was it happening? I tried to not let the unknowns distract me as I tried to save his life while waiting for the paramedics to arrive.
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Since he had no club promoting or hosting to do that weekend, Zade spent the whole weekend at my house. On the last day, Sunday, we woke up to a beautiful late morning and decided to head to the beach. I was still nervous about having to meet his parents later that day but I decided to block it from my mind so that I could enjoy my last full day with him before he had to go home. While walking on the beach with him, I was suddenly reminded of the morning I decided to end my celibacy. Now, there I was with someone special that I'd met since that morning and I was happy. I was so damn happy.
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"I wanna go out in the water," Zade said to me after I climbed up on a high bench.
"Maybe in a little while," I said back.
"You came to the beach to sit and watch the water?"
I laughed and replied, "Baby, it's a beautiful morning and I just wanna soak it all in."
