left for sorrow (Shawn Mendes)

6

I sit on the chair my feet shaking up,and down,as I look around the room the walls and roof are glass letting you see the outside the trees swaying,and the sun beaming the room has a nice beach vibe "emma" her voice breaks my thoughts apart,and I look at Barbara sitting across the desk staring at me with a pen in her hand.

"Yeah?" I ask biting my lip.

"I asked how are you doing"

"Oh fine i'm fine"I say now fiddling with my nails. She smiles,and writes something down.

"That's good. How are you liking it here? friends with the girls?"she asks.

"It's fine" I lie.I don't like it it's secluded from everything it's not my home.I think of the other question as I watch Blaine walk out the porch, and sits down on a chair taking his book,and pencil out,and begins to look at the beach and draws stuff.

"Are you friends with him" she ask following my gaze then looking back at me

I look away from him,and at Barbara "oh no..he's a uh a weirdo"I tell her remembering what i caught him doing.

"He's not a weirdo,he's different being weird can be good you know? You just have to try to get to know him"

"I'm good" i quickly cut in wanting to leave this session 

"Well that's your choice but how would you like it if people treated you different like a an outcast because of what they saw last night" she points out and we make eye contact but I look away awkwardly.

"I'm friends with Jenna,and Chloe I guess"I say wanting to change the subject.

She smiles "that is good how about the guys?I know Sam can be a little flirty" she says scribbling something down while my sight keeps going to Blaine.

"He's fine"

"And Luke?"I look at her right away as she brings his name up.I then look at the clock.

"It's over"

"What?" she asks raising her eyebrow.

"Our session"I say getting up,and point at the clock.

"Alright i'll see you tomorrow,and emma please let go" she pleads and forces a smile. I reach the door opening it,and walking out only to stop in my tracks when I see Luke leaning against the wall of the hall waiting looking bored. His eyes land on me,and we make eye contact embarrassment taking over me from last night.I look away and rush up the stairs. I turn around when I reach the top to see him entering the therapy room. What could he have wrong?he's so sweet and just perfect? I enter my room to see jenna painting her nails again.

"Hey girl. How was the session? did Barbara interrogate the crap out of you because she did to me but I didn't mind.I love talking" Jenna chirps.

"no kidding"I joke causing her to giggle.I begin to look through my suitcase for something specifically.

"Can I paint your nails?" she asks blowing on hers.

"Uhm no"

"Aw c'mon theyre  like crusty"

"Thanks?" I say more like a question as I keep looking through my suitcase until I find the specific thing I was looking for. I smile as I look at it in my hand.

"What is that?" Jenna asks. breaking my train of thoughts.I place it in my pocket,and walk out the room,and down the stairs leaving her alone with her question.

"Your dishes emma" Chloe passes by with an ice pop in her hand.

"Okay"I roll my eyes opening the screen gate in front of the door walking down the porch and towards Blaine whos still sitting down facing the beach.I sit down next to him in silence and I begin to play with the grass  as I watch the waves crash down at the beach.