Teaching A Love Story

Caught in the feeling

For the next couple of weeks Ace had been dealing with what to do about his relationship and just pushing himself into his work and got an apartment finally. After the nap, he said he felt much better and was ready to decide on what to do.

I, myself have been busy with work and getting my house just right. I've been hanging out with friends and family, as well as trying to be there for Ace. There have been some sleepless nights, Ace comes over once in a while and lays in my bed, crying while I hold him in my arms. I've never seen him this hurt before, he really cared about Jaime.

I was in my kitchen, baking some cookies and cupcakes when I looked out of my kitchen to see Ace playing video games. 

"Hey Ace... Did you figure out what you wanna do?"

I stepped back into the kitchen and continued to mix the batter for the cupcakes. He cleared his throat and I stepped back outside.

"I don't know, I just ignore her texts and calls or say that I'm busy. I just don't think I'm ready to see her yet."

"You can't avoid her forever Ace, you need to eventually talk things out with her and see where things are going to head from this point on." I wiped my hands on my apron.

"I know, I just I don't know where to start." He turned off the video game console and leaned back on the couch.

I walked into the living and sat down next to him, "How about you start soon...I'm not saying you need to start today, just soon. It's not good to postpone things or avoid certain topics just cause it's hard, I mean look at our huge blow-up. We almost broke up our friendship. So promise me you'll at least talk to her soon ok?"

He nodded and then reached to hug me. I smiled as my head laid on his shoulder. I got up and dusted my hands off my apron.

"Ok back to baking, I really want to eat my cupcakes!!"

He laughed and got up. "Why don't I help you with that?"

"Yeah, ok that would be nice, thanks!"

We walked back into the kitchen and Ace helped me finished up the baking and decorating. 

It was about 1 in the morning when I heard knocking on my door. I paused my movie and got off the couch walking to the door. I swung it open to see Ace swaying side to side with a beer bottle in his hand.

"HEY!!!!" He leaned over trying to come closer to me, I stepped back.

"Dude you smell terrible, how much did you drink?"

"Just enough to forget..."

"What? What are you talking about? What do you need to forget?" I grabbed his hand pulling him in so I could close the door.

He staggered over to the couch and just ploped himself down.

"I went back to my aparment when I left after baking with you and I found Jaime at my front door. She looked a mess, like she had been crying and staying up all night for a couple of days. I let her in and we kind of talked, but didn't at the same time."

I sat down and waited for him to continue.

"She told me that she would tell me anything that I wanted to know and was begging if we could try again and make things right. I told her I just needed a bit of time, she asked how much time and I told her I didn't know."

"Ok but what made you drink I mean did something else happen?"

He stared at me and tears started to run down his face.

"We ended up having sex, and I just... I wasn't expecting us to do it even if we're momentarily not together right now."

"Was it you guys first time? Is that why you drank?"

"No it wasn't our first time. I just I feel guilty and dirty, She cheated on me and here I was, having sex with her like if everything was fine. So I got up and left and told her to lock the door when she left. And then I went straight to get something that wouldn't make me feel or think and that just so happened to be alcohol."

"Ace...That won't help you deal with this situation. You guys need to talk it out and figure out what you want to do or just stop this relationship all together. If you can't bring yourself to forgive her or to trust her again it's completely understandable and you don't need to but please figure something out. You shouldn't turn to alcohol to fix your issues or to make you numb against your own brain and heart." I got up and walked to my kitchen grabbing a bottle of water.

"Here." I handed him the bottle of water. "You can sleep in the guest room, but tomorrow you need to figure out what to do and you better talk to Jaime ok?"

He nodded his head and I walked over and hugged him a bit.

"I'm gonna go to sleep, please take a shower also you smell disgusting."

"He laughed and nodded his head and I turned and walked to my bedroom and closed my door. Once my head hit my pillow I was out like a light.

Loud noises coming from my guest room woke me up out of my sleep. I slowly got up and walked to the room Ace was sleeping in and knocked on the door lightly before opening the door.

His form was slightly shaking underneath the covers on the bed. I walked over the bed and he turned his body and I saw his red eyes and tears running down his face. I ran my hand through his hair and he moved into my touch. I laid down on the bed facing him and putting my hand on his shoulder rubbing up and down.

"It's ok I'm here, it's ok." I watched as more tears came out.

"It...just...feels like...my heart is...ripping out of...my chest.." He sobbed and leaned into my chest.

I understand what he's going through, I've been in the same place as he is right now. It's a sucky feeling.

After about twenty minutes of him sobbing he had finally come down to tears running down his face every few minutes.

He looked into my eyes and I looked back.

"Are you ok?" 

He shrugged and continued looking into my eyes. He leaned closer so that his head was on my pillow.

This continued for a bit until the tears finally stopped falling. 

"Are you ok?" I asked again.

"Yeah." His voice was hoarse.

I got up to leave the room, since he was done crying but when I got up he grabbed my arm.

"Don't leave...please?"

I nodded my head and sat back down.

I laid on my back and was just staring at the ceiling when Ace turned my head and kissed me.

I back up and looked at him, "Ace...no we can't... You're already confused and might still be in a relationship. I don't want to help you cheat on your girlfriend, even if she did cheat on you."

"I'm not in a relationship anymore, I don't think I can go back to her, which is what I just told her."

"So...when I heard you sobbing that's because you guys had?..."

"Yeah. We're still going to be friends...I just couldn't look at her the same after that. But sitting here with you and you just comforting me, made me think about how I feel so much more comfortable being here with you."

I stared at him and tried to decipher what he was feeling and whether or not he was telling the truth. 

He leaned forward and connected his lips with mine. I kissed back and from there things moved pretty fast, before I knew it we were both naked and Ace was on top of me slightly panting and his hair was stuck to his forehead.

After we were done, Ace held me close to his chest and kissed my forehead. I just looked at his chest and thought about what I had just done and what this was going to do to our friendship.

I think we're screwed....