Amaris POV I met My best friend Josh in Middle School but he say we went to elementary together but I don't remember him lol. Everyday our 7th grade year I would be leaving my workshop class and him and his girlfriend would walk by me and he would say "Amaris I like your dimples smile" and i would smile like a dummy. Our 8th grade year him and his girlfriend was together still and he would still speak to me but i didn't pay him any attention frl. Then he ended up breaking her heart and to this day I still don't know what he did to her. 9th grade year I had history and science class with him and I started liking him , i started to see how cute he was with his lil "thot cut" and chocolate skin so I texted him and was like "hey☺️" and he texted back and was like "wassup shawty😏" and things went from there. That was the beginning of my heartbreak.
Josh became my diary and my best friend ALL in one. I felt as if I could trust him with my life , I told him things that I had never told anyone.
08/16/18 Amaris POV Me and Josh was in English class talking and laughing together like we always do. "You gone get a shirt made for me for football season" he asked me "Why you won't ask yo girlfriend to get one made" I said looking at him "Because she in the band man she gotta wear her band shirt" he said "Well she better get yo number on her shirt" I said rolling my eyes "Man you always doing that" he said "Doing what Josh?" I said "Nothing man" he said with an attitude. Right when he started getting a attitude the bell rung to go to 7th period. I was glad because he was making me mad.
I walked into my 7th period class which was history. I had this class with my best friend Alayna and my friend Brielle. I sat down, put my headphones in and started thinking about me and Josh friendship. I wanted to be more then friends with him but i wasn't going to dwell on it. I got on my phone and texted my big brother. He knew nothing about Josh because he didn't want me talking to boys but I needed him right now.
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I didn't even bother to text him back because I know he's probably mad.
"What's wrong with you" Alayna said "I'm starting to question me and Josh friendship" I said "Why? What he do now?" She said "He knows how I feel about him and he steady playing with my feelings, he's constantly hurting my feelings but I try not to show it" I said "Why won't you just move on and show him what he's missing" She said "I want to but I'm use to him and how he treats me and our bond. I don't want to start over with nobody new" I said "I understand bestie. Just do what your heart tells you to do" she said "My heart is telling me to stay and continue being friends with him but my mind is saying fuck the friendship" I said "He gone make me cuss him tf out if he don't get right" she said "Girl youuuu, Me" I said rolling my eyes
After talking with Alayna I put my headphones back in and turned on Layton Greene ~ Myself. In this class we didn't do anything so I put my head down and took a nap.
After 7th period was over I was walking to my locker and I seen Josh standing by my locker with a wife beater and basketball shorts on. "You done having a attitude?" I asked "You done being petty?" He said back "Maybe maybe not" I said rolling my eyes "Man Maris when you gone be my girlfriend?" He said pressing his body against my side and licking his lips "Uhm never , now back up" I said pushing him off me "You know you want me" he said showing his pretty teeth "I do but you got a whole girlfriend" i said rolling my eyes and walking off "I love you Amaris" he yelled before running to practice "Yeah whatever" I whispered to myself
I walked to my car and put my head on the wheel and let out a long sigh. I want to break down and just cry but I couldn't let him get me like that. My thoughts was interrupted by my phone ringing. Phone call: "Bestfriendddd" josh whined "What boy" I said "Have you left the school yet?" "No I just got to my car" i said "Can you take me to get something to eat, coach said practice gone start late" he said "Yeah josh I'm about to come to the field house now, you better be outside or im leaving you" I said "You the best bestie ever" he said Call over
I started the car and played Tink ~ Different and headed to the back of the school. When I got to the field house josh wasn't outside so I texted him and said "find another ride cause I'm gone" he came running out after i sent that text. "You play to much, and why you playing this depressing ahh music" he said turning down my radio "Boy dont touch my shit and because I'm depressed" i said shrugging "Why you depressed? Who I gotta beat up?" He said "Idk ? Yo self. Where you getting something to eat from?" I said " zaxbys and what you mean myself Ian did nothing" he said "Nothing" I said focused on the road "Nah we gone talk about this. It's 2:40 and practice don't start to 4:30 we got time" he said "Okay. You don't see the shit you do to me" I said "What me showing my feelings towards you?" He said "Yes you can't just be doing that knowing how I feel about you and plus you got a girlfriend man" I said "I don't really know how you feel about me you just told me you like me. Tell me how you feel about me Amaris" He said "Look josh I can't" I said glancing at him then back at the road "Why not? This problem never gone get solved if you don't" he said letting the seat back. " okay. I like you a lot , more than I'm suppose to like you. I know I got love for you but it might be a lil deeper then best friend love. I wanna be more than best friends with you. You don't understand how i feel every time I see you and Malaysia together. What is it? Am I not good enough for you? Is it the stuff i told you?" I said letting a tear fall but quickly wiping it. "Aye pull over" he said sitting back up. I pulled the car into Walmart parking lot and sat back in my seat and just let the tears fall.
Josh POV I just sat and watched my best friend cry her eyes out because of me. My heart broke into a million pieces. "Amaris please stop crying" i said she just cried hard. "Amaris I like you a lot and I'm sorry I'm making you feel this way. Remember in middle school when I would compliment you. You one of the most beautiful girls I ever met ion never wanna hear you say you not good enough for me. If you wasn't good to enough for me we wouldn't be sitting in this car right now, i wouldn't have went out my way to compliment you in front of my girlfriend and I wouldn't have texted you back when you texted me. And me having a girlfriend I can't just leave her, i got love for her. I don't want to see neither one of y'all hurt. My heart broke just seeing you cry. Oh and the shit you told me will never make me look at at you different if anything that make me want you more" i said leaning over wiping her tears. "Now give yo bestie a hug and stop crying" I said kissing her cheek
