dear god;
i just wanna move out, move away, move on from what happened.
i just really feel like i'm trapped in.
people tell me he got scared cause i'm too good for him,
but i'm thinking he got mad cause i'm not good enough.
it's tough, i mean, it's rough
i mean,
i fell for a guy who i thought was perfect.
in my eyes he was so fucking worth it.
broke my heart bout a million times,
just to make sure he was happy.
god, i let him him trap me.
may not have seen it then,
but i sure see it now:
his smile became mine
and it's gone with him, how?
now, god, i tried.
i made him smile.
he made me laugh.
everything was on track!
he called me love,
and he was my baby.
god, i thanked you for letting him save me.
a year of waiting and he was finally mine,
it was like i had won.
but not even two months later he told me;
"what we have here is done.
it was just a high school thing."
now, god, why would you do that?
make him think we were nothing,
after getting me attached to what i thought was something?
break us up, only to break me inside?
now i can't sleep, can't eat.
he's always on my mind...
distractions only get me so far until i'm forced back in time.
i can run, but i can't hide,
from this feeling inside.
so tell me, god,
is he feeling this too?
or is it just me that's gotta suffer through?
i got blocked, deleted.
like i never even happened.
and tell me, god,
do either of you regret all your actions?
cause as i write what was supposed to be a song.
i cry. it hasn't even been that long
but it feels like forever without him.
this time is different from before,
i just miss him so much more.
and i know deep down he's doing just fine,
i'm sure he's doing alright.
but i'm not.
i'm fighting to smile or even open my eyes.
