Unkind Fate: Jaebum

Chapter 27: Debut

Cleaning all the studio rooms right after training sessions doesn't feel like a punishment at all. It was tiring, yes. But considering the favor it gives me, as it helps me distract myself with so much thought, kind of feel that it was actually a reward. And it was a reward that I received for preventing Nayoung and the other girls to endanger JB.

Nayoung had touched the most detrimental part of our past, which is Riah's death. JB and I both suffered from blaming too much of ourselves from the incident, although, both of us had our own version of it.

We are not trying to hide the past, but as much as possible, we wanted to keep it from public because once it blew up, the pain will definitely come back again. It will not be easy, for sure, and the judgment from other people will only deepen the wound that was almost healed.

I don't want it to happen again, to me, and especially to JB. Because between me and JB, it was him who had suffered the most.

It may sound evil but I was actually relieved that Nayoung had already left JYP. From being demoted to level 2, she decided to just quit, instead of waiting few more years to debut. Jennie and Sooji on the other hand were still part of the level 3 trainees. However, once they commit another violation by, it will automatically lead them to being demoted. Facing their own punishment, I know pushing through their initial plan of revealing JB's so-called secrets, is their least priority now.

The three of them also knew that me and JB are dating. But even if they hide it for now, it is something we cannot hide forever or atleast within the three year ban. It won't be easy especially that JB will gain more eyes from the public.

It scares me. Not the people's judgment and criticism about our relationship, but with the fact that JB might really be forced out to leave JYP if it has reached the management. I can't let that happen. Not now that JB had gone through alot just to reach his dreams.

"Hey." Jiwon pulled me out from my thoughts when she grabbed the mop from me and continue dusting off the floor. "Go now, you will be late."

"Late?" I asked, my voice is soft, confused of what she is talking about. I took a glance on my watch and it says 5:00 pm - just an hour before the showcase.

My eyes lit up in the sudden realization. I didn't told her I am coming, I mean that was my initial plan but I don't think I have the courage to face him, now that part of me is considering the thought of breaking up with him.

"I've seen you staring at your vip pass last night." I can see the disbelief in her eyes and the deep sigh she just let out added the guilt I'm feeling.

"Sorry, I didn't told you." I said, watching her mop the floor. "Can you come instead of me? I don't think I can go."

She stopped. Darting the head of the mop down the floor. "And why? Is there something going on again that I didn't knew?"

I pressed my lips. Not saying a word.

"Why do I have to discover things on my own? Can't you tell me beforehand? Am I not trustworthy enough?"

I ran to her and snatched the mop from her. "I'll tell you soon, if things get a little less complicated." But that doesn't convince her enough. I can see her eyes glistened. And without any warning, the tear dropped on her cheeks.

"I feel like I'm not your friend at all."

That hit me hard. Jiwon is a good friend. She's the first friend I made after coming back in Seoul. And she's the one who helped me to adjust in my training life. But then I realized, I actually didn't told her about myself and maybe she was right about it, I didn't make her feel enough that she is a friend.