Head Over Feet

All Night

I am usually a focused, well-calculated person. I always knew what I wanted in life, and I strive hard to keep on track.

Then I fell in love. Everything seemed out of my control.

For 5 years I felt that I lost my voice, myself, my freedom.

There was a struggle within me.

I kept thinking about what other people would think of me and my failed marriage, because I chose him despite my family's apprehensions. I wanted to fix it. I wanted to make it work. I let my ex-husband run my life for 5 years, even though I felt unhappy, I still let him then.

But I promised myself it will not happen again. I will not lose track of myself again. I will not make any rash decisions again.

But it's been a while since I felt this good. This loved. This wanted.

The touches RJ is giving me are sending an indescribable electricity all over my body, it's as if I my soul is on fire.

I knew I should have stopped him from getting near, fearing that things will get more complicated than they are now, but by body betrayed me.

The moment he came near me, my brain went haywire, and everything else faded as our lips touched once again.

I never knew of this ache I had, until he slightly bit my lower lip, releasing me from our torrid kiss to catch his breath.

He looked at me, as if asking for permission to take things further.

For the first time,  I let go of all the pros and cons. I let go of my fears and apprehensions.

For the first time, in a very long time, I took charge and I pulled him towards me and continued with the kiss.

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Out of breath but still couldn't contain their lust for each other, RJ carries Dei as she wraps her legs around his waist.

He lays her on the bed, putting his left hand behind her head while his right hand pulls her straps down as he kisses her neck and shoulder.

Oh God, her shoulder.

Her skin glistening under the warm yellow light from her bedside lamp fascinated RJ. He couldn't decide whether to stare at her glorious beauty, or to taste every part of her body.

He chooses the latter.

Clothes were off and thrown all over the place as RJs lips traversed every sensitive spot she has, even those she never knew existed, until now.

Don't... stop... She whispered.

 Don't worry Dei, I don't have any plans to.    He whispers back.

As Dei couldn't take it any longer, she pulls him up and kisses him senseless. He enters her and feels the warmth of her wetness. He started gently, feeling every push and pull of their skins.

Her moans and whimpers fueled his energy and made him push faster. Harder.

She goes on top of him and sits up. His hands all over her breast and waist, guiding her strides as the room fills with nothing but their voices of satisfaction.

Oh Dei... Oh God...

With a few more strokes they both reach their peak.

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Side by side, they stayed that way for a few minutes catching their breathes just staring at each other with wide grins.

"Hey..." she whispered to him

"Hey." He smiles wider.

"So..." She doesn't know what to say.

"Hmmm? Isa pa?" He says, half-jokingly.

She laughs at him. "Wow kaya pa?"

"Oo naman! Hahaha! Kamusta ka?"

"Pagod."

"Flexible ka pala."

"Di ko rin akalain."

He stares at her, still in awe of her beauty despite all the sweat and ruffled hair.

"Wow..."

"Ha? Anong wow?" She asks.

"Wow. Just wow. I can't believe I'm in bed with you."

"Ano, with your prof ganun?"

"No, I mean, with you. I've always imagined this moment. I didn't know reality would be so much better."

"Talagang naimagine mo ha?"

"Oh you have NO IDEA what goes on in my head about you Ms. M."

"Aaaahh ganooon?" She asks as lifts her head up and looks at him.   "What is it with boys and their banging of professors fantasy?"

"Whaaat? First of all, I am NOT a boy. Clearly, I am a man. You've made a man out of me, especially tonight."

He laughs as she hits his arm.

"Loko ka!"

"De joke lang. Teka. Pangalawa, I DO NOT have any banging of professors fantasy, just you. I have been fantasizing about making love to you since we met, and nadagdagan lang nung Nakita kita sa campus. Akalain mo yun... I made love with Ms. M!"

"Oy iho. Wag na wag mong ipagkakalat ito ha. You know the rules."

"Don't worry Dei, I won't share you to the world. Akin ka lang."    He was surprised with what he blurted out, thinking she might take offense.

"RJ... You know my situation, diba?"

"Yes yes. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it, nagbibiro lang... Swear." He takes her hand and kisses it.

She lies on her back and stares at the ceiling.

Tama ba itong ginawa ko?  She thought.

"Hey..." He says as he holds her chin towards her.   "I didn't mean it, na akin ka lang, that would be unfair to you to pressure you into anything. And this doesn't change anything. I will wait. I will wait for you. For as long as it takes."

"Pasensya ka na RJ ha. You know how complicated things are in my life. I don't mean to lead you on to anything, and ayoko rin sanang madamay ka pa o ano."

"I know, I know. Let's just stay in the moment. I am happy, even if it's just moments with you. Ikaw? Happy ka ba?"

"Yes. At this very moment, I am happy."

RJ takes her hand and kisses it. Then he leans forward, kisses her forehead, cheeks, and lips.

"You wanna be happier?"    RJ says in between kisses, wiggling his eyebrows at her while wearing a smug on his face.

"Again? Now? Di ka pa napagod??" She laughs at his naughtiness.

"I can go on aaaaall night Ms. M." He says as he goes on top of her, initiating yet another round of lovemaking.