When Sunshine Sets | Poetry

Look at Me

Look at me.

What do you see?

I can honestly say

That it's different from what I see.

I look into the mirror

And it makes myself crack.

I don't want to admit it to myself.

And I sure as hell don't want to admit it

To anybody else.

"You're never alone,"

They say.

But that doesn't help this feeling inside.

"People feel the same way you do"

They understand why it's so hard

To admit it out loud,

When all you want to do is curl up and

Hide your feelings,

Hide your mind.

So far away you lose yourself.

Not like I knew myself from the beginning...

Now look at me.

What do you see?

You heard what I felt.

Does it change what you see?

I don't need your pity,

I don't need your hate.

I already have enough of that

From me.

Leave me be.

Let me have my thoughts keep swirling in my mind.

Because I need to feel this shit

From time to time.

If you're always happy,

Does it really matter?

You lose sense of the word,

Until it hits you like a shitload of bricks.

"What goes up, must come down"

You can't always fly.

You have to glide down slowly,

Or crash down hard.

Either way you have to fall,

Until you pick yourself up again.

Look at me,

And realize that what you see doesn't matter.

It never did.

I never cared and neither should you.

Carry on your life,

While I live mine.

Whether I'm happy or sad,

You shouldn't worry.

Eventually I'll be fine.

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