Hopelessly Satisfied// (UNDER EDIT)

Eliza's Sacrifice

Angelicas pov

I walked out of the Winters ball with a wide smile, I was extremely happy at this moment and I loved every bit of it.

"so, how was the ball? Any possible suitors for any of you three?" father had said as he saw me make my way up to them.
"no, but I did get to meet a few soldiers!" Peggy excitedly said "interesting, well you'll have better luck next time margarita, I hope I won't be disappointed," fathers said sternly as he looked at Peggy "and you Elizabeth? How was the night? Any possible suitors?" father said as he glanced towards Eliza and I did as well, hoping she did in fact "find" the love she was most desperately waiting for "... Oh um sorry, father I guess... Not" Eliza says, it seems as though she spaced out and wasn't concentrated on the conversation.

Wierd, normally Eliza is very attentive when it comes to subjects like these...
"hmm very well... As long as Angelica tried? Right?" father said as he looked at me seriously "I do believe I have father," I said, then suddenly I saw my father light up "splendid! Finally, you have taken your roll in this family, so who is he? A businessman? A lawyer? Or possibly a politician?" father said as he started to ask questions rapidly but thankfully before I could answer any of them our carriage had arrived.

"you'll just have to wait and see father," I said as I smirked while getting into the carriage.
Everything seemed normal for the most part but something was definitely wrong with Eliza, she wasn't her normal talkative self, I wonder... What could've happened to her?
"Betsey is everything alright?" I say to Eliza
"...." no response she must be spaced out
"Betsey are you alight?!" I say a bit louder
"oh, I'm so sorry Angelica....um..what was it?"
Eliza said to me which completely shocked me, she was never the type to make somebody repeat themselves because apparently, it wasn't" ladylike"
"are you alight Betsey?" I say as I put my hand on top of hers, she flinched at the sudden interaction which confused me...
"oh um.." Eliza took a moment to think then said
"y-yes... Yes I'm fine.." she said lowly, but the fact that she stuttered was so off..
"well I don't believe you, is there anything you need? Or would you like help with something? Advice? Romance?" Eliza flinched When I mentioned romance "oh Angie it's fine... It's just something silly that happened at the Winters ball" Eliza says to me with a smile "hmm and?" I asked confidently, if she is ever hurting in any way I would stop that pain at any cost "the sold-... The businessman I met was already engaged and it broke my heart... Knowing that I can't do anything about it" Eliza said to me with a sad smile
"oh," I said "oh Betsey I'm so sorry that happened to you," I said as I hugged "if there's anything you need or any way I can make you happy just tell me," I say as I smiled towards her
"oh, of course, Angie" she smiled at me

As we made our way to our house
Peggy was the first to get out and then me but Eliza went immediately to her room at a rapid speed "what was that about?" Peggy said as she glanced a me "hmm maybe she's tired? It has been a very long night..." I said which was the most reasonable answer "hmm okay if you say so" Peggy says as we enter our house
And as we were making our way to the staircase I stopped her "um Peggy could I ask a favor of you?" I said nervously "oh fine, what is it, Angie?"
Peggy asked tilting her head slightly "well... You see father doesn't know about Alexander and I'm sure he won't be happy when he finds out where he comes from...." I said to Peggy as my hands start to shake "but could you please check the mail before anyone else does... I don't want father to find out who he is... because I'm absolutely sure Alexander is going to write to me" I said to Peggy hoping she would accept "EEE, OF COURSE, ANGIE!" she said excitedly almost screaming " oh um sorry" she said aa she lowers her tone after realizing she was practically screaming "what I meant was I absolutely adore you two together!" Peggy said while jumping up and down together "and don't worry Angie! No matter what you will be 'Angelica Hamilton'  even if we have to kill father to get his blessing" Peggy says to me which made us both giggle "Peggy..." I said as I hugged her tightly "thank you so much" I said to her sweetly "if there's anything you need just tell me, I owe you so much" I say to her "it's fine Angie, now come on let's go to bed" she says whilst she grabs my hand and leads me upstairs
"Okay okay," I say with a warm smile.

Eliza pov

As I made my way out of the Winters ball I tried so hard to get my mind off of things...
But it wouldn't work.
"and you Elizabeth? How was the night? Any possible suitors?" father, why did you have to ask something that would remind me of so much pain... I want to scream out so badly that Angelica took away the person I had fallen head over heels for but I couldn't... I can never admit it.
Not Angelica
Not Alexander
Nobody
"I um sorry father... I guess not." I said emotionless and after that, I spaced not even trying to hear the conversation, I just wanted to leave this place as soon as possible.

As we got into the carriage my mind was still full pain and sorrow and I couldn't concentrate on any body's voice until- "Betsey are you alright?!" Angelica had said to me a bit loudly "I'm sorry Angelica what was it?" I said while I look at her with a fake smile "are you alright Betsey?" she said smoothly and put her hand on mine which made me flinch at the sudden contact "oh um" I said to her, I truly did not know what to tell her because it would sound ridiculous, to tell the truth, so I made up a lie "y-yes... I'm fine" I lied "well I don't believe you, is there anything you need? Or would you like help with something? Advice? Romance?" angelica said to me but the last part made my flinch... Romance huh? Right now I wish that was the last thing on my mind and heart "oh Angie it's fine... It's just something silly that happened at the Winters ball" I hope she believes me.. "hmm and?" Angelica said suspiciously, now I have to make up a whole story "the sold-." oh no I was almost going to say, soldier... That would've sounded so suspicious "The businessman I fancied was already... t-taken and it broke my heart... Knowing that I can't do anything about it" I said to Angelica, it wasn't entirely a lie.. "oh" Angelica said "oh I'm sorry Betsey that happened to you" Angelica said as she hugged me " if there's anything you need or any way I can make you happy just tell me" Angelica said, that sentence made me realize.
Angelica would've happily given up Alexander for me, she knows me like she knows her own mind...if I told her that I loved Alexander she'd be silently resigned, he'd be mine, she'd say she's fine... But she'd be lying.

God Angelica I never knew. You always wanted the best for me and my happiness and even if you would have to give up Alexander for me, you would do it a heartbeat,
What am I thinking? I should be happy for her. That's my duty as a sister
"of course Angie" I smiled at her.

*They arrive at the mansion*

As we make our way out I quickly made my way to my room, I couldn't bear look at Peggy or father

Especially Angelica.
I've been so selfish all the life I truly am terrible.
I opened the door to my room and closed it quickly, then made my way to my window and sat carefully at a chair next to it glancing at the night sky,
"But when I fantasize at night it's Alexander's eyes," I say to myself as I clench my heart " as I romanticize what might have been," I say as I feel my tears going down my checks "if I hadn't sized him up so quickly," I say as I close my eyes and let my tears fall " at least my dear Angelica is by his side...." a sad smile had appeared on my lips when I imaged Angelica and Alexander holding each other " at least I keep his eyes in my life.." I open my eyes and look up at the stars

Well done Angie.
May you always be satisfied