I'm not a fighter (Tom x reader)

Days has past

//k I've actually noticed that I spelled some things wrong and now I feel really embarrassed because it! Haha ha haaaa...I'm gonna start writing now...//

//wish me luck...//

June 28

I woke up with a huge memory loss that morning. I couldn't even remember how I got home but I do remember having a panic attack and Matt some how calming me down. I remember talking to Matt about everything, about my dad. About how he would push me around to be the perfect solder. He once killed a man in front of me. It was our neighbor. He was a good man but then my dad...he forced me to watch him die. My dad said I always have to be prepared for a family member to die, or worse, a friend. He made it very clear on the friend part, and that's what got me prepared. As prepared I was, I was and still! Not Ready to lose my friends. This morning I woke up that to Ringo licking my face, telling me to get up. Edd probably forgot to feed him again. So I went to feed him, and Edd and Tord were sitting in the kitchen. Matt was still sleeping at the time. I forgot I was still wearing my shorts and tank top. They both looked at me and stopped what they were doing. Tord was eating serial and Edd was getting ready to go to the store. I've tried to keep a straight face and I did. "You forgot to feed Ringo again" I said finally.

"Uhh...I did...Y/n?"

"Okay, cool" was all I said and walked upstairs to my room.

//later that day//

Tom finally came home. I was so happy to see him. He looked a bit...sad?...maybe his hangover is finally killing him so I'll leave him be.

//the next day//

I have a feeling things are getting awkward between us now. Yesterday he hasn't talked to me at all and today too. This morning we bumped into me while I was walking out my room. I tried to laugh but he quickly said sorry and stormed down stairs. It was weird.

//July 11//

I'm sick of this now. Tom has been ignoring me for the past two week. I can't take it now! Is he to afraid to go on another date or something? I'm gonna confront him later today.

//the next day//

I've confronted him and all he said was "sorry" is that all he's going to say now?
I hope not.

I've noticed that tom has been going to the bar almost every night. Is he really trying to drink me away? I know I said something to him that night but what? I can't remember a thing that night where we last hung out. I've also noticed that Edd is trying to find a time to ask me about my scars. I'm not ready to tell them...yet"

//August 5//

For the rest of the month I've been in my room this whole time or just outside all day with Jon and I've also befriended Susin. Shes pretty nice and really fun to. She bring the adventure to the three of us. I never see her that often though. She said it's because of her family business and some other stuff.

//September 9// it's beginning to get cold around here now. I hate the cold. I don't go out as much now so I just Text Jon all day from my room but sometimes he's busy with his other "friends". My whole room is cold but it wasn't that bad though. I can hear yelling and laugher coming from outside my window. It's probably Edd fighting with the neighbors again. I get up from my bed to see what was going on from my window. I can see all the guys outside arguing about something.
"No! It's the best show ever made!" I hear Edd yell.

"That show sucks! It didn't get a laugh out of me!" Edoardo said. I don't know what's the deal with this guy. Does he like to pick on Edd or something? I'm kinda getting sick of this now. I'm just here trying to relax and all and I get this from out my fucking window. Alright, I'm gonna put a stop to this. I opened my window. After I did, I regretted it as soon as I did because all the cold air came in. I then pocked my head out the window and now I really regret that.

"HEY!?" I yelled. As soon as I did, they all starred at me. "SHUT THE FUCK UP! IM TRYING TO RELAX HERE!" I yelled again. "YOU FORE!" I point my finger to edd, Matt, Tord and tom. "GET YOUR ASSES INSIDE NOW! ITS FUCKING COLD" "okay! Mooooom!" I hear Tord say. I then look at edoardo who is laughing at the moment. "AND YOU! STOP BULLYING POOR EDD YOU ASSHOLE AND DO SOMETHING USEFUL FOR ONCE!" I shut the window. "I think I was to hard on them maybe..." I mumbled. You know what? Never mind. No one says my favorite show sucks. At least I think they were talking about my favorite show.

//toms pov//

After Y/n's sudden outburst, she shut the window pretty hard. We were all shook by this because we all knew, even  edoardo, mark and Jon, we knew she was a pretty chill person and never really yelled a lot. We didn't really say anything after that, we all just walked inside. After we want inside I started thinking. I feel like I changed her by telling her I liked her. Maybe it wasn't that. Maybe it was because I was ignoring her for the pass three months or so. Maybe I should talk to her today. I've noticed a lot that she's been trying to talk to me for the whole time. I think that's why she stays in her room now. Man, I am such an asshole now.
"I didn't expect THAT from her.." Edd suddenly said.

"I think I'm gonna go check on her" Matt said. This got my attention and I thought. 'I should go check on her, and maybe say sorry...'

"Matt wait! I think...I think I should go check on her"

"Tom it's okay! I'm gonna-" I cut him off.

"Matt! I said I'm gonna go check on her" he just starred at me and nodded his head. I nodded back and walked upstairs to go check on her. My heart was pounding every strep I took.

//I hope you enjoyed this one! I still feel silly by making all those mistakes on the other chapters...but hopefully that won't happen again...by the Way I THINK I saw a ghost yesterday when I was using the rest room. It was small but dark and it went threw the wall. I guess you could say it scared the SHIT Out of me! HAA!//

Happy holidays!
Love - fan girl~