I'm not a fighter (Tom x reader)

Part of it.

//I just wanna make something clear. SORRY FOR TAKING LONG ON THESE CHAPTERS!! It's hard to write on this now. The plot is all weird and I make several mistakes on spelling. So from here on out I will make them better then the other chapters! I actually almost gave up on this and sorry again! Okay, enjoy the chapter.//

// Y/n pov//

Later Susin came back and sat next to Tord again. I was talking to tom about a bunch of random things cause we didn't have anything to talk about for this whole breakfast. We all finished our breakfast and we started walking home. Susin asked Tord to walk her home which was the other direction from us. Jon also decided to go somewhere else for some reason. Then a thought came to me 'I can't keep lying to my friends...I've gotta tell them today' I thought. The only person who knows is...is Matt. I'm still so surprised that Matt...Matt helped me. He's such a good friend. To good that I can't believe he's my friend. I don't really deserve all the friends I have now. "Hey Matt?" I say.

"Yes?" Is all he said.

"I need to talk for a while if that's okay." I said. "Alone."

"Oh! Okay."

"You guys walk up ahead a little, we'll be there." They just nodded and kept walking. We were slowly walking from the back. "So, I was thinking." I paused. "I was thinking about telling the guys about, ya know, my past." I slightly whispered.

"Really? You don't have to ya know."

"I do though, I don't wanna lie anymore."

"Y/n, you're so brave! I wouldn't even do that." He said happily. Even with a small part of a sentence he could still cheer me up. Now that I think about it, he's like my own personal cheerleader.

//time skip~~~~//

I was in my room, still preparing on what I should say to the guys. I texted Tord to come home and that was like ten minutes ago so he should be home any second now. I know Edd and tom are down stairs just watching tv and Matt is in his room probably watching hisself. Then right there I heard the door open from down stairs. "Home!" I voice of Tord yelled. 'Okay okay okay! Just spite it out and get it over with! They're your friends! They'll understand! I mean matt understands and he doesn't even understand most things!' I thought-yelled to myself. Then I heard a knock on my door and with someone entering. "So, Y/n. Tord is here, are you ready?" A voice of Matt asked. I turned my head to look at Matt  and I smiled sweetly.

"Of course I'm ready! I was born ready!" I say smiling widely.

"Well I was born ready-ER then you!" He yelled with challenge in his voice.

"Yeah right!" I say, getting off my bed and walked over to Matt. "I'm ready then." I say, I little more quit then before. Matt just nodded and went ahead of me, walking down stair and I followed. Sitting there was Edd, tom and Tord. Matt went to go sit down with them to. Next to Tord. I was hesitant at first and finally walked to them and stood in front of the tv. This got their attention.

"Um, Y/n?" Edd said. "Something wrong?" He asked. I then cleared my throat.

"No there is not, Edd. I want you all to know something important I've been keeping from you all." I explained. Finally getting Tom and Tords attention. Then all of a sudden Ringo came and sat on Edd's lap. 'Aww! It's like he wants to hear this! What a best bro.' I thought. I smiled a bit at that. I must of looked unsure cause Matt looked at me with a reassuring look. I smiled at him and looked back at the guys. "So, I don't know how to say this but..." I paused. "My dad, he used to abuse me..." I said was a little hint of sadness. I'm trying to stay strong actually. I'm gonna try and use all my power within me to try not to cry. This got a bit of a concerned look from them. Except for Matt. He just gave a weak smile at me.

"Y/n-" Edd try to say but I interrupted him.

"I'm not finished." I say. "He used to abuse me, but not in anyway like hit me or ya know...That...when ever he yelled at me and if I got scared, he would cut me...just for being scared. He was in the army and he wanted me to join in but...I'm just to scared." At this point I was shaking. The thought of him again literally made me flinch. I then decided to pull up my sleeves from my arm, showing my scarred arm. Some had faded away and other had stayed. Some even fresh from me. Then I decided to pull up my pants from my legs, pulling them upward to show them. I hear them all gasp. I was shocked a little at their reaction.

"Why didn't you tell us?!" Edd yelled out, slightly jumping from his set.

"We could have helped you! Y/n, why did you keep this from us?!." Tord yelled out to.

"I-I didn't want you guys to worry...I wasn't even allowed to hangout with you guys at that time." I say with cracks in my voice.

"Did..." Tom said. I could hear some anger and worry in his voice. Mostly worry. "Did he do this to you?" Tom asked, gesturing to my scars. I then realized that I have to tell them that some of the are from me too.

"Most of them." Is all I say. Then right at the spot, a single tear dropped down my face. "Sorry I didn't tell you guys...I didn't want to become a solder...my dad has been training me for as long as I could remember...he called me names...he said I was useless...he told me I wasn't the daughter he asked for...mom was also to scared to help..." I said with a few sobbed. I fail at everything, I even failed at trying not to cry. I'm loser. Their eyes widen at me. I never really cried mush but at this point my eyes are just a waterfall. Then, all of a sudden I feel warm yet stiff. I soon realized that everyone one was hugging me, even Ringo was curled  up on my foot. My heart started to beat with joy. I soon realized that I didn't tell them the full story. "But-" then I was interested.

"Y/n, you don't have to speak anymore okay? We get it. We all love you." Edd said. Man...and I only got to tell them part of it....but I guess it's for the best.

"Yeah don't worry, Y/n. you weren't the only one. My dad was an asshole to remember?" Tord said, trying to lighten the mood. It worked because it got a laugh out of me.

"Yeah." I say with a small laugh. Soon everyone let go of me except for Tom. He was the only one still hugging me. I realized I never really hugged back so I wrapped my arms around him and barred my face in his shoulder. I then sniffle a bit and smiled to myself. I let out a small giggle because we were still hugging for a while. I let go of tom but he didn't. "Uhh, tom?" I said with a small giggle. "You can let go now." I say. After like five seconds later he finally let go. He looked at me straight in the eyes and what I saw shocked me.
'Is that a tear in his eye?' I thought.

A/n

So finally done! I thought this would take long but surprisingly it didn't. I mean, for you guys it was hella long but yeah I'll publish more chapters in the future. Also, I have other stories on my account. If you're into creepypasta then go check out my Ticci Toby X reader fanfic. It would be great if you checked it out. As alway, have a nice day!

Love - Fan_girl76~