Look Lil I'm not you dad and I won't try to be now. But I miss you. I feel so responsible though. If I had been there, your brother wouldn't have thrown that fit in the restaurant and she wouldn't be in prision, we'd be at home together like a family and you wouldn't feel so alone that you'd have to kill yourself.
I feel so bad. Lil, that most of this was my doing. I've done such a crap job of your life I really have, maybe I should never have come into it. But you know what I was wrong when I said it was better to feel pain than nothing at all. Because this pain I have of loosing you hurts. I don't know if its ever goimg to go away.
And your right. Indo need to get my life sorted out. Your mum and Archie need someone, and I want to be him. I'm goona give up the drink and turn my life around, and you can look down on us and see that we're a good family. I'm gonna look affter them Lil I promise.
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Letters to Ellie - An Ellie Goulding Fanfiction
FanfictionUgh, who am I kidding, why am I even bothering to write these letters? Your never going to read them, but it seems like I know you. Like your my only friend in this cruel world. Your songs speak to me and there's so much I wish I could tell you b...
