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I know this seems pretty cheesy or cliché but this is a stats page / about me page.

Name: Elizabeth

Age: 14

Height : I'm not sure I think around 5'1 - 5'3

Starting weight : 57.7 kg

Goal Weight 1 : 47.7 kg

Goal weight 2 : 42.0 kg

                  UGW : 34.0 kg

Starting weight loss : January 1st 12:00 AM 2019

             Reach Goal by : January 1st 12:00 AM 2019

Although I will be starting my diet plan on January the 1st I am using December to intuitively eat "clean," so that when January comes it wont be as hard to drop bad habits and pick up new ones.  I will be explaining why I want to lose weight and et cetera in later chapters a.k.a the next one, hehehe. Anyways....

About me :

My name is Elizabeth, duh,I'm 14 and I live in Australia. Although I am Australian born I do have a bit of accent sometimes since my mother and her side of the family are Scottish and my father and his side of the family ( and my older sister,) are English . I currently go to a public school but I am always moving schools, houses and towns. In fact I am being home schooled in 2019 (it's 2018 right now.) I am a night owl, I did have a really good sleep schedule for awhile I would sleep at 9 o'clock and wake up at 5 but now I am basically an insomniac because I can never sleep. I play a lot of sports and I have been champion girl for swimming and cross- country for years as well as winning other medals .... not to brag . I have 2 sisters ( one older and one younger,) and one brother. Their names are Maddy , Samuel and Abigail. I have  many animals in the past but I currently only own 3 dogs and 2 cats. The three dogs' names are Poppy, Bruno and Scrapy and the two cats' names are Timmy and Winnie. Poppy and Bruno are brindle boxers ( Poppy has white markings and Bruno has black,) Scrapy is  a jack Russell- terrier cross Chihuahua but he looks like a fox terrier. 

Anyways enough of that boring stuff on to the drama or, as the people in my school like to call it, tea. I have been in my school in a year and the school year has now ended, meaning I am now home schooled . I have a few good memories of that school and lots of friends but..... it felt wrong. All year I had this strange feeling of emptiness, sadness and that something just wasn't right. Something was missing . Well the school year is over and I still don't exactly know what that is but I think it has to do with my friends. The year before this school I had a group of amazing friends and maybe I had high expectations now, you know when you meet people that are basically made to be good friends with you? And then you expect everyone else to be like that? That's kind of what happened to me but this lasted  only for a month before I realised that not everyone was like that .When I first came to the school I stuck to familiar faces. Long story short my primary school best friend attended the school and introduced me to her friends. I was very shy, quiet and I wouldn't talk much during class or at lunch to my 'friends.' I felt out of place. Don't get me wrong they were nice people but they were always trying to act perfect and be good at everything . Sporty goody-two-shoes .I was nothing like them as much as I pretended to be. Not only that but there was this girl who used to know my brother in primary school lets call her ' Soy Milk,' and another girl  called  Brooke ,who  I became close friends with both of them later in the year .I would sit next to them but they would talk and I would... well... sit next to them. School was a prison I couldn't escape, thank you Government. Skip forward a few months and there was a time I was watching the 'popular people,' laughing and having fun from the other side of the area and I literally said        " Don't you ever want to be one of them?" What is this , a cliché high school movie? The goody-two-shoes looked at me like ' gurrrrrrrrrrl what?' I had wanted to hang out with the popular people because from what I could tell they were like me. They were loud and didn't give a damn. Eventually with some connections to my brother I became friends with four of them. Felicity, Jade, Levi and Kohan. We hung out for some time until Levi and Jade broke up making us a trio until later on during Term 3  Chelsea came to school . We were a quadruple for some time but Chelsea didn't like me and would talk shit about me and frankly I hated her more than I hate pumpkin soup  ( I actually had these imaginary scenes of me hitting her head into a one of our sharp school columns until she was unconscious, bleeding on the floor.) So I moved on and extended my group . I was that nice girl. I didn't have a group and I would jump from group to group during break times to see all of my friends but if the question, who my best friends were,was ever asked I would have said "Thalia, Bronte, Jessica Jones, Jessica Elliot, Imogen, Tasmyn, Amalie , Lochy , and Finton." I think that's how they spell their names . And although it was fun having so many friends and I hate sounding ungrateful , for some reason I would still come home feeling lonely and unwanted. For some reason the fact that I didn't belong to a group made me feel as if I hung out with someone else then no one would care because nobody cares about me or what I am doing. Which as much as I want to defend my friends, was true. In fact I would hide in the toilets at lunch. Now I see the reason nobody likes me I think to myself as I scroll through thinspo . I am fat and ugly . I had always thought the girls were ridiculous when they would prepare for school for hours or how I would walk into the toilets and they would be pimping their selves up in the mirror . I always thought they were beautiful no matter what make up they wear but that was just me and my 'opinion'. The sad thing is my opinion will never get to them like judgemental looks ,rumours or the compliments they had obnoxiously expected and proudly accepted knowing that they had worked hard on their eye make - up and hair. Just like their opinions would never get to me like the voice in my head telling me I was fat. I didn't care about their appearance but they did, as much as they did everybody else's. Which is why I wanted to lose weight.I still want to lose weight. I will lose weight.

A/N . Sorry the school part was so long but I actually missed out A LOT of parts and important details so if you are interested in that I will make another chapter but if not just skip it:). Also I 'm sorry for my really bad grammar I have been up for 34 hours and 36 minutes so I am a bit tired plus I didn't edit or proof check it. Bye now !    

                                                                      xoxo

                                                                  Elizabeth