Play The Game (COMPLETED)

Chapter 31

#PTG31 Chapter 31

There were only two scenarios. One, I remember what went down that night and be able to determine whether I deserve everything that was happening to me. If... If I really did kill Kier, tatanggapin ko ang parusa na para sa akin. A life was taken, and someone should pay for it. But if I couldn't remember it... God, I didn't want Jax breaking the law. I didn't want him to break his oath.

"Let's start from the beginning," he said, flipping through the pages of his notes for my case. Tahimik ko siyang pinapanood. How could he do this? How could he remain so strong? I knew that it would take so much courage to be him right now.

I nodded. I wanted to be cooperative. He's already doing so much for me... the least I could do was to keep on hoping that justice would prevail.

"Kieran Ramirez," sabi niya na parang hirap na hirap siyang banggitin ang pangalan na ito. "What did he exactly do for a living?"

"He's the COO of my company."

"Your company?"

I nodded. "His parents made me sign a pre-nuptial agreement," I said. It was as if I could still hear Kier's voice when he got mad upon hearing it. Maybe I should have known. Maybe I should have seen the signs. He's scary when he's mad. Siguro ay nagbulag-bulagan na lang ako. Dahil siya lang iyong nasa tabi ko. Na dapat na lang akong makuntento at magtiis.

Jax began to scribble down words. He wasn't looking at me. I didn't know if he was doing it on purpose... Siguro ayaw niyang makita iyong takot sa mga mata ko. Siguro nasasaktan siya na marinig kung paano ako nasaktan.

"That trip... what..." sabi niya ng patigil-tigil. The ink was blotting on the paper. His eyes closed. His jaw clenched. This was hard on me... but it was harder than him. "What was the exact reason why he asked? You mentioned before that when..." Huminga siya nang malalim. Nanatiling nasa papel ang kanyang tingin. "When he hurts you, he'd ask you out on a trip."

I took a deep breath to brace myself. Nahihirapan ako na makita siyang ganito. I didn't like talking about Kier. I hated talking about everything that happened... but I needed to get it all out. And fast. I didn't want to see Jax suffer like this.

"It was because I was out having lunch with Anj," tahimik kong sabi. "I... I really tried to avoid my friends. Lalo na sila Simon. Nagagalit sila kapag nakikita nilang may pasa ako. Nauubusan na ako ng idadahilan sa kanila..."

I held my hands together. I needed to do this. For Jax.

"That day, I went home late. I was supposed to go home early, but I got distracted..."

I could still remember that day clearly. I saw Jax on the television. Madaming reporter ang naka-paligid sa kanya. Everyone wanted a piece of him. He was slowly making a name. He just won a high-profile case. I always knew that he would be successful. Kaya kahit na minsan, ni hindi ko magawang magsisi sa desisyon na ginawa ko dati. Oo, nasaktan niya ako... but this was bigger than me.

His dreams would always matter to me. It would matter before my own feelings. I just love him like that. I'd hurt silently. I'd bleed silently. I'd do it all if it's for him.

"Pagdating ko sa bahay, nandun siya... He was drinking again. And then... he accused me."

Agad akong natigil. Hindi ko alam kung paano magpapatuloy. Hindi ko alam kung paano sasabihin sa kanya. Paano ko sasabihin na siya iyong dahilan kung bakit nagalit sa akin si Kier? Na sa ilang beses niya akong sinaktan? Si Jax ang palaging dahilan.

Tinignan ko siyang muli. Ayaw niya pa rin akong tignan. Ni hindi minsang naalis ang mga mata niya sa papel.

Hindi ko nabilang kung ilang segundo. Hindi ako nakapagsalita. Nakaramdam ako ng kaba.