Play The Game (COMPLETED)

Chapter 42

#PTG42 Chapter 42

I was ordered to go out of the room. I couldn't breathe. Hindi ako maka-hinga dahil sa mga narinig ko. Hanggang ngayon, tila pasikip pa rin nang pasikip ang dibdib ko. Paulit-ulit kong naririnig ang sinabi niya... Para bang naririnig ko ang boses ni Kier na sinasabi iyon...

'Wag si Katherine...'

Sumandal ako sa isang pader. Pakiramdam ko ay biglang bibigay ang mga tuhod ko dahil sa mga nangyayari. Akala ko... Akala ko hindi ko na kaya pang magulat sa mga pwedeng mangyari... I thought I already suffered the worst... but how could I possibly go on with my life thinking that the person I hated saved my life?

"I want to go..." mahina kong sabi. Jax didn't ask any more question. Tahimik kaming naglakad pabalik sa sasakyan. Pagbalik namin sa hotel, nahiga ako sa kama. Gusto kong matulog... pero natatakot ako sa pwedeng pumasok sa panaginip ko. I didn't want to see his face... I didn't want to dream about him...

"I'll be at the other room if you need me," Jax said.

I nodded, my mind still being haunted by the image of him... full of blood... trying to shield me from the people who murdered him...

Hindi ako naka-tulog buong gabi. Paulit-ulit na bumabalik sa isip ko lahat ng mga narinig ko. Hindi ako makakain. Pakiramdam ko... pakiramdam ko tuluyan na akong tatakasan ng bait.

Hindi ko alam kung ilang araw ang lumipas. All I knew was that Jax never once left my side. He was there, just watching me... He didn't talk... He didn't ask... I knew he just wanted to stay by my side... Alam ko na natatakot siya sa akin... Natatakot siya sa pwede kong gawin sa sarili ko...

"What is this?" tanong ko sa kanya nang may iabot siyang paper bag.

"Clothes. Take a bath, then wear those."

"Aalis tayo?"

"Yeah... We've been staying here for a week now... Okay lang ba sa 'yo kung lalabas muna tayo?"

"Saan tayo pupunta?"

He stared at me for a few second. His dim expression softened. He sighed, and sat beside me. "Dr. Sena... She's a psychiatrist. Do you want to talk to her?"

Tumingin ako sa kanya. Tumango ako. "Okay..." mahina kong sagot. I knew something was wrong with me... I wanted to be okay again... I just didn't know where to start.

"Thank you, Jax."

He smiled. "It's fine."

Umiling ako. "No, thank you. You... You could've just left me... But you stayed. Even when it's hard. Even when leaving was the easier choice... You stayed..."

Jax didn't say a word, but his smile was enough for me. Mabilis akong naligo at sinuot iyong damit na binigay niya. Paglabas ko, naghihinay na siya sa akin.

"Do you want to eat first?" he asked.

I shook my head. I wanted to do normal things... I knew I already got my freedom, but I could still feel the cold bars against my skin. I needed to regain the feeling of being free. I didn't want to be stuck in this. I needed to fight to find myself again.

But I wanted to take things one day at a time...

Pagdating namin sa clinic, sabi ni Jax na nasa labas lang daw siya para hintayin ako. Tahimik akong naglakad papasok sa loob. Agad akong sinalubong ng ngiti.

"Hi. Katherine, right?" Tumango ako. "Have a seat," she said, motioning to the cream-colored couch behind me. Naupo ako doon, at pinagmasdan ang paligid. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagmamasid niya sa bawat galaw ko. I felt like a rat being studied... but I knew I needed this. I needed help.