Benefits||g.b.d

Chapter 18

By the time we got home a few days later we had almost completely forgotten about the drama online. We got situated at home and got a good nights sleep and didn't check social media at all. When we woke up on Tuesday morning we tried to get back into the swing of things. Ethan and Grayson both posted on Twitter and Snapchat teasing the video like normal. They ignored all rumors of our marriage and didn't give any hints about what the video was about. "Which video are you posting today?" I asked Grayson as he walked around our room in just boxers and got dressed. "I don't even know!" He laughed. I rolled my eyes. I heard Ethan walking through the hall and I called his name. "What's up?" Ethan asked as he walked into the room. "What video is going up today?" I asked again. "The challenge we filmed before the wedding." He explained. I nodded. "I was thinking we should film a Q&A for next week and sneak in answers about the wedding and stuff" Ethan said quietly, unsure if we were ready to announced our relationship yet. I looked at Grayson and smiled. "Up to you, babe." He said quietly. I nodded. "Go for it." I agreed. "Why don't we have Y/N pick the questions and ask us instead of us picking them?" Ethan asked. I rolled my eyes. They were forever trying to find a way to get me on camera, but I hated it. "Can I read the questions from behind the camera?" Grayson shook his head. "Nope, time to face your fear, babe!" He said sweetly. He walked over and kissed me once. "Please?" He asked again. I sighed. I hated being on camera, but this was our life and at some point I'd have to get used to it. "Ok, fine!" I agreed. The twins both smiled. "Really? You're finally going to film with us?!" Grayson asked. I nodded. "I guess so!" I replied. The next day the twins posted about the Q&A. As expected most of the questions were about our marriage. Grayson and I sat in bed as I scrolled through the questions and screenshot the good ones. By Thursday morning I had tons of good questions and I had to narrow them down before we filmed. "Y/N! Let's go!" Ethan yelled from the filming room. "I'm fucking coming!" I replied. I walked into the room and Ethan was focusing the camera on Grayson. "I had an idea." I explained. The twins both stopped and looked at me. "Why don't you guys start just like normal, and answer a few questions yourselves, and the. Asked a question about me and I'll join in and ask the rest." I offered. The twins agreed and they sat down to start filming. "What's up guys? We're BACK!" The twins yelled In unison to start the video. "This week we're doing our yearly #askethanandgrayson video and answering all of your questions!" Ethan started. "Let's just get right into it, we have a lot of questions to answer!" Grayson added. Grayson pulled up his phone and asked the first question I sent him. I picked 3 random questions for them to start with and then the fourth question would introduce me. After the third question was answered I held my breath. I was shaking and se nervous. "Grayson..." Ethan started dramatically. " did you really get married?" He asked with a smirk. Grayson had a silly smile plastered across his face. He shrugged his shoulders and lifted his hands to show the camera the wedding ring on his finger. "Oh shit, is that what this means?" He asked pointing to his ring. I walked around into the cameras frame and sat between the twins. I held my hand up and looked at my own ring. "Wait, that's what this?!" I asked with pretend shock. "We're married?!" He replied. I clapped my hands to my face and feigned shock. "Holy shit! We're married!" I exclaimed. Grayson leaned over and kissed my forehead and then looked at the camera. "Yes, I got married a few weeks ago. This is my wife, Y/N!" Grayson introduced my happily. I waved at the camera and smiled. "Ok, my turn to asks some questions!" I announced. I looked down at my phone. I asked a few random questions to both of the twins and a couple more questions about me and Grayson. We laughed and joked and before long I felt a lot more comfortable in front of the camera. "Well, that's it for this video!" Ethan announced as they started the outro. "We will see you next Tuesday!" Grayson added. They looked at each other and the. To me and we all smiled. "Peace!" We yelled in unison. We turned off the cameras and Ethan went to his room to start editing. " I had another question for you, but I didn't want to ask on camera." I told Grayson as we walked outside to sit down and relax. "Oh? What question?" I handed him my phone and watched as he read the question out loud. "How many kids do you want and will you be having kids soon?" He read from the screen. We hadn't talked about kids since we lost Devon. It was suck a sore subject, but at some point we needed to talk about it. "You know I want kids." Grayson said quietly. I nodded. "I know, and you know I do, too. But we never really talked about... when." I mumbled. Grayson sat beside me and pulled me to his side. "What do you think?" He asked seriously. I shrugged. "I don't know. I'd like to start our family, but I'm scared. I don't know if I could handle losing another baby." I answered honestly. Grayson nodded and squeezed me closer to his side. "I know, but we just have to trust that when were ready it will be okay." He reassured me. I laid my head against his shoulder. It was a lot to think about. The fear of losing another baby paralyzed me. "Why don't we just enjoy married life and come back to that question in a few months or something." Grayson offered. I leaned my face towards his and kissed him. "Okay."
To be continued....