Benefits||g.b.d

Chapter 2

A while later we laid on my bed sweaty and out of breath. Somehow we had made it from the couch, to the living room floor, and then to my room.(no lie did we fucking teleport?) I looked over at Grayson and couldn't help the smile spreading across my face. He smiled and kissed me once on the forehead before rolling out of bed and standing up. " we never finished making our pizza." He said with a devilish grin as he pulled his boxer briefs on. I rolled my eyes with a smirk and got dressed quietly. We went down stairs and I finished making the pizza while Grayson fixed up the living room. The awkwardness was setting in, neither of us knew what to say, so we were just silent. I put the pizza in the oven and joined gray in the living room. He was flipping through channels on the tv trying to find something to watch. I sat down beside him and looked towards the tv. Even sitting by him felt awkward. I didn't even know if I should move closer to him or touch him or sit on the other side of the couch. I stared at the tv show, but I didn't take in a single work they were saying. I wanted to turn and look at Grayson on the other side of me, but I was too nervous to look at him. We sat around the tv and ate our pizza in silence. When we were done he helped me clean up the kitchen. Everything we were doing we had done 100 times before, but the awkwardness of the situation was weighing down the room. We couldn't keep going like this. As Grayson finished loading the dishwasher I turned around and leaned on the counter and looked at him. "So...elephant in the room?" I questioned, thinking we should talk This out. "Yea..." he replied, but he didn't say anything else. I wracked my brain as I thought of what to say. My natural coping mechanism sarcasm, so I said the only thing that I could get out. "Fuck buddies?" I questioned with a smirk. Thankfully, it broke the tension and he smiled. Although awkwardness still hung in the air, everything felt lighter. He leaned down and kissed me once. "Fuck buddies." He agreed. We both smiled. "But I do have to get home, Ethan should be back there soon." He said with a sign. I nodded. "See you again before you go home?" I asked. When he came into town I normally only got to see him once or twice. "Definitely." He said with a smile. His demeanor was flipping back to friendly. He got his sweatshirt and slipped on his shoes. I walked over to the door with him and he pulled me into a hug just like always. "Hey umm..." I started as an errant thought popped into my head. He looks at me quizzically. "Are you going to tell Ethan?" I spit out. He stepped back and looked at the ground. "Umm...I-I..." he stuttered. " I don't know." He confessed. "Well just give me a heads up if you do." I said with a small smile. He just nodded and the walked out the door. I closed and locked the door behind him. I mindlessly walked upstairs and got a shower. I dried my hair and threw on my most comfortable pajamas. When I finally laid down in my bed my head was a mess. So many thoughts all running through at the speed of light, but with no answers. He was my best friend. More than anything I didn't want to fuck that up. Ethan and Grayson had been so important to me for so many years. Would Ethan be mad? Would this ruin my friendship with both of them? Did Grayson want more? Did I want more?! Were we really going to be fuck buddies or was there more between us? What would happen when he went back to LA? I had no clue what to do or what to say.
To be continued.....