1)
school has been somewhat okay. it has its good and bad days just like about anything in life. i ran into sophia in the halls and she smiled at me. that smile shines brighter than any star in the sky. nothing ever comes willingly and that's just how it goes. no one comes up to me and i don't bother doing to same. people are scary. they have a choice. they can love you and hate you or you can get caught up in the middle. some things never change,
-jeremy
2)
two months till schools finally over. my dad isn't home ever and he acts weird around me. sometimes i feel like a shadow. people see me and know im there, but im not the actual thing. im an outline. maybe that made no sense but to me it's clarity.
-jeremy
3)
as if life couldn't get any weirder, my father tells me we're going on a drive. we don't spend time together and he never really has ever been proud of me. hes always had my siblings and then there was just...me. he stops at a Victorian looking house and he dumps me off like im trash. i was soon to realize i would play part in an experiment. the kids here don't know i exist but sophia was there and looking more beautiful than ever. maybe not all bad will come from this.
-jeremy
4)
we're a few months in and already there's been a fight. i realized that people portray themselves to be someone they're not. like the best version of themselves. because they want to hide their true identity from the world so they won't get judged and hurt. i know there are secrets in this group and we're not seeing the big picture but maybe we're not supposed to.
-jeremy
5)
everything felt like one big blur. all i remember is hearing screams and people crying. i remember seeing blood, a lot of blood. i remember holding sophia in my arms. i remember what color was once on finn completely drain like it was never even there. i watched life leave his body. a lot can happen in one single instance. Words can hurt. actions paralyze. and people are messy.
-jeremy
6)
i knew there was a bigger picture. wyatt's gone. finn's in the hospital. jack is with him. jaeden went after wyatt . people have a choice in life. you can either be the hero, the villain, or the spectator. you can sit back and watch, you can help, or you can cause the problem. ive sat back and watched my whole life and now, i need to fight. i want to do something that mattered. i want to be the hero. but hero's don't exist.
-jeremy
7)
everything is over. no more being afraid, no more experiment, no more anything. we won our battle, we lost a soldier and barely made it alive. would we consider it a win, no. as long as chosen is gone it'll never be a win. we confide in people so we don't have to in ourselves. and sometimes, when we lose them, it makes it harder. i got the girl of my dreams, im friends with the jock, the bad boy, the class clown, and the class president. i killed a man. i don't feel like a hero. i didn't save anyone. i didn't do anything.
im still that loner kid who reads books. who had no friends. and i was that kid who just got lucky enough to be trapped in a house with those six idiots.
for a while,
-jeremy
