Just like that

Chapter 37

It was like time literally froze. No one said anything. The tension in the air was that thick, I'd need a frickin chainsaw to cut through it. Then I snapped.

"you're what?! Adrian you can't be serious! What is wrong with you?! I can't believe-" I would have continued, but Josh covered my mouth. I bit his hand and ran to the stairs, turning back to stare at Adrian with a look of disgust on my face. "you said you'd always be there for me, but I guess that's just another promise broken by you huh" I spat, running up the stairs and locking myself in my room.

Laying on my bed curled up in a ball, I hugged my knees to my chest and cried. My brother-my big brother who I thought would do anything for me-was leaving. And to top it all off, so was my boyfriend. Someone knocked on my door a few times after about ten minutes.

"go away" I mumbled.

"Hayley? Come on, please don't do this. You know I love you" Adrian pleaded.

I laughed, a dry humorless laugh. "you just keep finding more and more ways to prove that don't you" I said sharply.

Adrian sighed and muttered something like 'I knew you'd react like this'. "we'll talk later" he said quietly, his footsteps fading down the hall when I didn't reply.

Wiping my eyes, I sat up and glared at the mirror where a picture of me and Adrian was stuck there. I was about twelve when it was taken, we were at the park for Adrian's birthday.

I screamed in frustration and pulled the picture down, ripping it in half which just made me more angry, but at myself this time. I pushed everything off my desk, a few bottles of perfume cracking when they hit each other with force, and ran over to my bookshelf, throwing the books around the room. Then to top it all off, I ran to my closet and pulled out all the clothes, chucking things across the room off their coat hangers.

Why I was doing this? Adrian got me almost everything. Almost. But it...decreased my anger a little bit. It felt good. Just as I was about to trash stuff in my bathroom, someone banged on my door.

"babe?! Hayley! What're you doing in there?!" Zayn called in a stressed voice. When I didn't answer, he banged on the door again, harder this time. "open the damn door Hayley! I'll break it down if I have to and you know it!" he yelled.

Only because I knew he would, I unlocked it and walked back to the middle of the room. "it's open" I croaked. But he heard me.

The door clicked open and Zayn stepped in, his eyes looking over my room in shock. "Jesus...Hayley what'd you do?" he mumbled as he turned his eyes on me.

"made myself feel better" I muttered, shrugging my shoulders.

Shutting the door, Zayn walked over to me quickly and pulled me into a much needed hug. I broke and wrapped my arms around him, snuggling my face into his chest as I cried, trying to muffle the sound of my sobs.

"what happened babe?" he questioned softly, lifting his hand up to wipe away the tears that rolled down my cheeks.

"he's leaving"

"what? Who?"

"Adrian, he's joining the army"

"damn...Hayley I'm so sorry" I nodded and stepped back, getting rid of the rest of the tears and drying my face with my sleeve. "you ok?" he muttered, playing with a strand of my hair.

I shrugged and looked at the ground. "you're leaving in a week, you won't even be here for me when he goes" I got out, biting my lip to keep from crying again.

"babe.."

"no, it's ok. You can't help it" I sighed.

"it's not ok. I'm leaving when you need me. Louis' leaving when Eleanor needs him the most. It's seriously not ok" Zayn mumbled, pulling me into his chest again. I looked up when I felt a tear hit my forehead and completely broke down. Seeing him cry felt like I was being hit in the gut repeatedly. "I'm going to miss you so much baby girl. I can't sleep without you" Zayn choked out.

"I know, but we should at least try and make the rest of the week good? Spend as much time as we can together" I suggested.

He only nodded. "actually, let's go on a picnic. Like now" Zayn said, grabbing my hand and dragging me down to the kitchen.

Adrian looked up when we walked in, shaking his head and walking past us.

"asshole" I muttered, shouldering him.

"Hayley don't" Zayn warned.

"why not? He deserves it" I hissed.

Adrian's face dropped even more, making a small part of me feel bad until I remembered he was leaving. I turned to the fridge, pulling out random things to eat an drink while Zayn searched the cupboards.

We made sandwiches, cut up some fruit and grabbed some whipped cream, strawberries and meringues as well as some lemonade to drink. I suggested vodka but Zayn laughed and said no. I don't think he realised I was being serious.

After about half an hour drive, we pulled up to a small pond kind of thing just off the road behind a thin lining of trees. We'd come here once or twice before, I guess you could say it's out spot.

"I wish we could come here everyday, life would be so simple" Zayn sighed, lying on his back after we'd spread out the picnic blanket.

"but it's not, and we just have to go with that. We'll get threw it, we've been threw worse" I shrugged, trying to play it off as if it didn't affect me to bad.

Zayn propped himself up on his elbow and looked at me seriously, "have we, though? That week that we were split up, when everything with Halle happened, that was one of the hardest weeks of my life. Why? Because I was away from you. But 4 months..I don't know-"

I cut him off with a quick, lingering kiss to shut him up. "this picnic is suppose to be happy, so no thinking about the negative things. Besides, I'll be able to come and see you! Although I've been thinking about getting a job lately..I know I have the inheritance but I want to make my own money, I don't want to keep using that" I babbled.

"it's ok baby, I get it. Anyway how about a drink of lemonade young lady?" my strange boy asked in a posh voice.

"why thank you kind sir" I giggled, making Zayn smile.

"you're so adorable, I think I fall in love with you all over again every time I hear you giggle" he explained after receiving a questioning glance from me.

I just about turned into a tomato when he said that. "you mean the world to me Zayn..I've already lost you once because I was an idiot, I can't lose you again" I whispered, laying down next to him and tangling my fingers through his hair, playing with it absentmindedly.

After talking and eating for another hour, we gathered everything up and got back in the car. "Zayn, um could we go to see mum and dad's graves?" I asked quietly.

He looked at me with wide eyes, obviously not expecting me to ask that. "sure, baby. Of course" he said quickly. Ten minutes later, I was kneeled down at my parents graves.

"hey mum, dad. How've you been?" I asked, smiling sadly.

"hey Tom, hey Skye. Don't worry I'm taking care of her" Zayn chuckled and I smiled.

It made me happy to see him talk to them so casually as if they were right here and alive. Most people get all awkward and would rather just leave.

"so..Adrian's joining the army" I slowly breathed out, my throat closing up as I spoke. "he's leaving me mum! Just like you two did. I need my big brother" I just broke, tears continued streaming down my face as Zayn pulled me into his lap rocking me back and forth.

"why do they leave me Zayn?" I cried.

"who baby?"

"everyone. Everyone leaves in the end"

"not me. I'm not going anywhere".

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(A/N) GUYS I'M ALIVE IT'S ALL GOOD. I'm so so sorry it took so long, hopefully the next one won't! I had it ready about a week ago but wattpad deleted it :/ I know it's not very long but I'm sorry

~hayley xx