TO ALL THE BOYS I'VE LOVED (BTS)

3 ; dear yoongi

Dear yoongi,

Hey yoongi,

Or should we just stick to your old nickname that I gave you?

Hm.. what was it?

Pootie.

Hey pootie!

Do you remember why I gave you the nickname pootie?

It's because you would always pout whenever I refuse to stay the night.

People would always judge you.

They say you were a cold person and that you weren't friendly at all.

But I disagree to the fullest!

You're the softest human that had ever laid feet on the ground!

I knew you very well.

I mean, we have been friends for about 12 years, since highschool.

You would always think about others and you would put yourself on their shoes.

You were like the feeling of hugging an old friend, familiar and incredibly relieving.

You were like flowers in the garden, beautiful but temporary.

You weren't cold,

You were just protective.

You were scared to lose me.

Remember when you forced me to stay inside just because my dress was too "revealing"

I thought that was cute.

I thought that you were just scared of losing me.

But it was too much,

That it became a habit.

Everytime I went out with a boy,

You would always get upset and ignore me for hours, and I would feel guilty.

Everytime I wore shorts or crops,

You would always complain and nag on me to change.

I was stuck.

I didn't want to lose you.

So I listened.

But I was wrong.

One day, I decided to not listen to you.

We did fight that day.

We screamed and called each other names.

I'm sorry.

We made up and promised each other,

To not leave.

To never go,

To stay.

A year passed by and we still talk to each other often.

One day you came to my house and gave me an envelope.

It was a wedding invitation.

Not any wedding invitation though,

It was your wedding.

I don't why but something inside of me crashed,

As if my heart stopped beating and as if my worlds crashed.

I wanted to cry that exact moment.

But you were there.

So I smiled, and invited you in.

You refused because you had to take your fiancée somewhere.

But don't worry, that was long ago.

I always wonder what it feels like to be yours again.

I always wonder what it feels like to hold you forever and to stay with you forever.

I always do.

I miss you alot.

I hope you have a great life, Yoongi.

Sincerely,
Athena xx