TO ALL THE BOYS I'VE LOVED (BTS)

4 ; dear hoseok

Dear hoseok,

Hey there my sunshine,

How are you doing?

I miss you and we should totally catch up.

I miss skateboarding with you.

I miss dancing with you.

I miss how you would always whine whenever I mess up the dance.

And I would always mock you and we would end up eating pizzas!

We would always watch the sun sets on Tuesday and watch the sun rises on Wednesday.

I love spending time with you.

You were like the feeling of riding in a car with all the windows down, thrilling and easy feeling.

I was death,

You were life.

We met at school,

I knew you through Namjoon,

You were one of his friends.

Remember when you told me you didn't know where Namjoon went?

I knew you lied.

After you knew I knew that Namjoon went away,

You called me and you went over to my house to comfort me.

You brought me ice cream and you told me that Namjoon had told you all about me.

After that we became close friends and you promised me to always make me happy.

You promised to always comfort me.

You promised to always be with me.

But you ditched me a couple of times to go out with your other friends.

They were ruining you.

They took you to bars and made you drunk.

They made you leave me.

And so you did.

But even though you broke your promises,

I still loved you.

One day, you came over to my house and apologized.

You brought me icecream and took me to the sea to watch the sunset.

I forgave you.

You made me feel happy,

You made me feel sad,

But most of all,

You made me feel loved.

You made me know what loving is like.

It's like bouncing between exhilaration, euphoria, increased energy, sleeplessness, trembling, a racing heart snd accelerated breathing.

But those feelings disappeared when I saw you with her.

It was indeed painful to let you go.

But I'm happy I did.

Let's catch up soon!

Sincerely,
Athena xx