RK800//Connor x Reader

T W E N T Y O N E

You woke up to a pounding on your door, you quickly sat up at the hopes that it was Connor. You threw the covers off yourself and hurried to your door, stumbling over the shoes you left there last night. You hoped to throw your arms around him but you opened the door to see Gavin. You sighed and put your hands over your tear stained face, moving towards the couch. Gavin squeezed himself inside and shut the door, holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand. He walked over to you as you sprawled yourself over the couch,
"Y/n...are you okay? You don't look well..." he mumbled

You kept your face covered,
"What do you want,Gavin? Did you just come over to bring me flowers and give me some kind of bullshit apology?" you let yourself look at him for a moment, "I know you're not sorry because you wouldn't have even said those things!"

"Y/n,please..I know I was pretty rude and yeah, I did mean what I said but I know it wasn't right. It wasn't fair to you for me to be so mean to someth--someone you care about, I wanna make things right." he sat the flowers onto your coffee table before kneeling down by the couch, he moved your hands away to kiss your cheek

"Gavin..." you knew he meant it but you couldn't even look at him, you had felt as if he shredded anything and everything that was going well for you.

His phone beeped and he looked down to check it; he let out a frustrated sigh,
"We'll talk about it later, I got a crime scene," he stood quickly and headed to the door and he called to you once you sat up from the sofa, "I love you, Y/n."
he waited for a response but you didn't even look at him, you heard another sigh escape him but in a much more broken tone before you heard your door shut. You sat on the edge of your couch with your head in your hands when you heard the sound of a notification from your phone, you got up and hurried to your room. You rolled your eyes when you realized it was just your friend posting something on her account. You went to the post which had shown off that she was with child, you scoffed and went to call her. It rung out a few times before she picked up,
"What the hell? Seriously, now you pick up?!" you yelled at her

"Y/n, can you please calm down?" she spoke

"Calm down? It's been weeks and months and you've avoided me and ignored me when I've needed you the most and you want me to calm down? I have nobody down here, nobody." You started with anger but the more you spoke the more the sadness filled you and you were on the brink of tears

"I can't be there all the time! I have my own life and a family!" she blurted back

You fell silent before speaking,
"I thought....I was family.."

"Y/n, grow up. I have my own life to worry about, I know we're friends but look at us. We're completely different!"

"How?"

"I'm actually making something of myself,I put myself out there. You just sulk around and do nothing for yourself, that's why I can't do this anymore! I can't talk to you anymore because you're just an anchor!" she gets angrier with you

"And what do you mean by that?!" You yell in disbelief and pain

"I mean that anyone you attach yourself to you is just gonna sink! You stop them from going anywhere because of all your shit, they're your problems and you need to learn to deal with them..I'm sorry Y/n but I can't talk to you until you grow up and finally mature."

You choke out a sob, "G-Go fuck yourself!" You stutter out before hanging up in her face. Apparently it was a crime to want to confide in someone. But maybe she was right, maybe you were that much of a burden to be around. That's exactly why you had nothing and no one, that's what you told yourself at least. You sobbed violently and looked at all the things you had that came from her;all the stupid souveneirs,and gifts ,and trinkets. Now they didn't mean a thing. Basically your whole lifetime worth of a relationship didn't mean shit and it was a complete waste of time. You grabbed everything you could hold and ran them into your living room to trash them. You threw them into the garbage before you paced over to the shelf in your living room and grabbed the picture frame that held a photo of you both. Probably the happiest day of your life, that day was filled with so much fun and everything felt so real and genuine but apparently it was all just fake. You threw the frame to the ground where the glass would shatter and all that anger and sadness turned into adrenaline as you stomped onto the glass to fully break it. You stomped over and over, not even able to acknowledge the broken glass that you were getting into your foot. You've never felt this way before, so broken and hopeless; you shrunk up against the wall and the pain finally set in as you fell against it. You sobbed harder and more violently as you felt everything collapse in on you. You felt like you couldn't breathe anymore..
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Connor♡
He sat at his desk with Hank and felt a bit frustrated as he tried to focus on files. He looked across the room at your desk, worry inside of him.

"She was supposed to be here 4 hours ago..." Hank sighed, growing a bit worried himself

"Hm?" Connor looked up, pretending as if his eyes hadn't been fixed on Y/n's seat this whole time

"Really? Connor, why won't you just make up?"

"I can't, Hank. There can't be an 'us' , no matter what."

"What do you mean?"

"If I can't be with her I'll feel nothing but pain...."

"Connor, when you love and care about someone you put them before yourself and you risk anything and everything for them; even when you shouldn't."

The android sighs in frustration,
"Even if we did...we're not meant to be. I'm an android and she's a human, she'll miss out on so many things if she's with me."

"Like?" Hank asked confused

"She can't have a family, a real one.."

"You know for a machine you sure are a fuckin idiot," the old man chuckles, "If she loves you, you'll find a way to overcome things like that. You could be all the family she needs, and as far as I'm concerned you are human to her..."

Connor falls silent for a moment,
"But, Hank--"

"Stop making so many excuses! Do you know why you're doing that?"

"...No,why?" he looked at the man

"Because you're scared, I don't know why but you don't think you're enough for her, but you are. You're probably even the best for her, even if she doesn't see that yet. She needs you, Connor."

He weakly smiles before standing,
"Thankyou, Hank. Thankyou so much." he hugs the man tightly and he returns the gesture

"Go check in on her, I'll take over here."

Connor nods quickly and rushes out the station, heading to Y/n's place as quick as possible...