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Song: Rewrite the Stars from The Greatest Showman
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I've been having dreams about ash. I'm not really sure why, I haven't talked to her in months and I broke up with her a whole year ago. But I've been thinking about her lately. The only reason I don't talk to her anymore is because my mom basically forced me to cut her off. I miss her like crazy, but she won't reply to any of my messages. I feel so stuck. All she did was treat me like gold and I ruined it. I wish she lived here. She could make everything better. She lives six hours away, yet somehow I still miss everything about her. Her long brown hair, her freckles, her soccer player's body, her cute little baby face, her adorable brown eyes. I don't know what's gotten into me. There's someone from my school that likes me, someone nice and sweet and totally available. But I don't feel that way about them in the slightest. I don't know how to tell them that I still love someone that might as well not exist, she lives so far away. I'm still holding onto hope for some reason. If by some stroke of luck you're reading this ash, I just want you to know that I'm so sorry. I am. I didn't want to hurt you and I didn't want any of those things I did to happen. You're the only person who ever called me sweetheart.
You still call me sweetheart after all these months.
