catch me | doil ✓

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Taeil

we ate in silence. it's not that i didn't want to talk to him, but because he knew about that. how did he know about them? for all i remember i never showed my chest nor back.

i didn't want to stay there any longer so once i finished my chicken nuggets i said a quick thank you and dashed to my room. i locked the door and threw myself on the bed. why does nothing ever go my way? can i just please sink into the bed and not come out? why is my life such a mess?

"taeil."

ignore him.

"taeil i know you're in there. open up please."

don't open the door.

"taeil lets just talk please."

why is his voice sound so unstable?

"taeil please i don't want you to be hurt anymore."

without giving it much thought i stood up and unlocked the door. i opened the door and doyoung was standing there with tears in his eyes and a red face. "taeil! gosh please don't scare me like that. i thought you were going to do something stupid! we're friends, you can tell me anything that's on your mind. i won't judge and i'll be there for you! just please don't keep your emotions bottled up." he threw his arms around me and pulled me into a tight hug. i could feel unstable breath on my neck which made goosebumps to grow on my arms and legs. why does he have to be so soft? i ran my hand through his hair and shushed him.

i broke the hug and tugged him towards the bed. i sat down and he sat down next to me. he was still sniffling so i just held his hand and rubbed it to calm him down. after about 5 minutes he stopped sniffling and squeezed my hand. "thanks. i don't know why i cried so much. the thought of you being hurt really did hurt me." i giggled and squeezed his hand back.

Doyoung

oh gosh that giggle. i could hear that everyday for the rest of my life and i wouldn't get sick of it. "don't worry, i don't think that will happen anytime soon. with you by my side i'll be safe!" i smiled and looked down at our hands. can we stay like this forever? he must have noticed me staring because he tried to untangle our fingers. but i didn't allow that. "don't. i like holding your hand." my blush grew and i looked away. he laughed and fell backwards on the bed. "ok if you say so silly."

is right now a good time to ask him about his back? i don't want to kill the mood. i'll just ask about it later. right now i'll just enjoy a cuddling session with taeil.

i laid down next to taeil and looked in his direction. he was already looking at me. i smiled and he covered his face and mumbled a few words. "what was that?" i tried to take his hands off his face but he wouldn't budge. "taeil~ what did you say??" he didn't take his hands off his face but i could see a blush growing on his cheeks. cute. i poked his side which made him gasp and squirm. so he's ticklish. well isn't this handy.

i attacked his sides and he thrashed around. "doyoung! stop i cant breathe!" "i'm not going to stop until you tell me what you said!" i continued for another minute or two until he screeched out a 'fine'. "gosh i just said that you are...." he mumbled the last part. i brought my hands up and rose my eyebrow. "clearly please." i motioned that i was going to tickle him again and he nodded his head. "i said that you are cute. there! i said it! are you happy now?" he said i'm cute. what's this feeling? my heart a going nuts. oh gosh i hate it but i love it.

"well look at the time! i should be heading to bed! i have work early tomorrow!" i was about to get up until he pulled me back down on the bed. my cheeks are burning. why is his touch so powerful? "but i'm not tired. lets do something!" something? what is he thinking about? innocent thoughts, only innocent thoughts around here. "w-what do you want to do?" he smiled and patted the spot on the bed next to him. "well the bed is comfy and i was thinking that w-" i zoned out. what does he mean? marty, i'm scared! "innocent thoughts! innocent thoughts!" he looked taken aback at my outburst. then he burst into laughter. "i was going to say we can watch a movie. gosh doyoung get your head out of the gutter." i blinked. a movie yeah ok. i nodded and he skipped over to fetch the tv remote. he opened netflix and looked over at me and smirked. "netflix and chill?"

oh this was going to be a long night.

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i am back!
i wanted to include the explanation about his back but i decided to push that back and include this.

signing off
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