catch me | doil ✓

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Taeil

"open your mouth."

"doyoung stop."

"just open your mouth."

i sighed and opened my mouth for doyoung. he smiled and shoved a spoonful of rice into my mouth.

"hey! you literally shoved the spoon to the back of my throat! i could have died!" i choked out while wiping my mouth with the napkin that was on my lap. he covered his mouth as he fell into a fit of laughter. i tried to look mad but couldn't keep it up for long. as they say, laughter is contagious.

"i didn't mean to almost kill you il! just wanted to feed you." his laughter soon died down and he was back to stuffing his face again with all sorts of stuff. something i noticed about doyoung was that he tends to stuff is mouth until he looks as chubby as a bunny.

"hey bunny! stop eating it all and save some for me!" he looked up from the plate of rice he was stuffing his face with and glared at me. he swallowed everything quickly and crossed his arms over his chest. "i am not a bunny."

"oh but you are." i poked his nose and he scrunched it up. "you calling me a bunny reminds me of an old friend and i really hated him." i frowned and plopped a piece of meat into my mouth. "you know the more you hate someone the more you love them." i leaned on the table and wiggled my eyebrows. he rolled his eyes.

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after finishing the meal we decided to walk to the park. we walked in a comfortable silence with our shoulders bumping into each other every now and then. oh how badly i wanted to hold his hand. i mean, they kept on rubbing against one another. it would only make sense to hold hands so they wouldn't be out of order.

as if he read my mind, doyoung grabbed my hand and squeezed it. "let's go sit under that tree, yeah?" i nodded and followed. his hands were soft but at the same time sweaty. he also seemed spaced out. i wonder what's on his mind.

we made it to the tree and he sat down against the tree then motioning me to sit as well. instead of sitting down next to him, i laid down and used his thigh as my head rest. as if on instinct, he started to play with my hair.

"what's on your mind?" that question seemed to catch him off guard as he stopped playing with my hair. i opened my eyes and looked straight into his. "don't tell me you don't have anything. i know you have been thinking of something."

he started to fiddle with my hair and let out a breath I didn't know he was holding. "i want to know more about you. more about your scars."

i shut my eyes tightly. he should know? right? he was taking care of me, it's only fair that he does. i gulped and  nodded.

"as you know my past was very rough. everyone seemed to dislike me because i was gay and had a passion for art. i wanted to be myself but no one could accept that. my parents and the kids at school would beat me. the kids at school would leave me passed out at the back of the school. and my parents, well they had no mercy. they would punch, kick, and whip me with their belts. they would call me a disgrace and tell me they wish i was never born. the marks of the damage are still there. i believe you have seen them because you are asking about them. now that i'm speaking about my scars i would like to also bring up the ones i've made. i was weak and wanted nothing more than to die. so i hurt myself too," i raised my sleeves and exposed the old scars on my wrist, "i was weak, but now i feel like i can be myself. i'm getting better, i promise. you don't have to worry."

a few tears escaped my eyes during my short story. but doyoung had more than a few tears running down his face. he was red and running one hand through my hair as the other covered his face.

"i'm so sorry il." he hiccuped and uncovered his face. he smiled down at me and ran both his hands through my hair. "but now i'm here to support you. and i'm never leaving you alone."

i smiled at him and sat up. i looked at him in the eyes and brought him into a hug. "thank you." i whispered and brought my hands to his head to pull him in closer while his arms went around my waist.

i was a puzzle missing one piece to be complete. and now, i think i found it.

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author here!
i am back and im thinking of updating a lot this weekend, not only because i'm excited to write my new book (mine. a yuwin short story) but because i have a lot of ideas !

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signing off!
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