Unexpected Book 1(lesbian) (Editing)

Aubrey

i apologise for the slow and late updates but university is killing me and i only have access to proper internet at my girlfriends work. But here is another chapter :) Thanks for reading.

Aubrey

This is insane.. I cant do this to her.  How could i have ever thought that it would be okay to tell her all of this? i meant for this to go a completley different way. I wanted for us to be together for a long while first before i broke the news because by then it would be easier for her to accept me because she knew me better and for a longer amount of time. And now she is passed out on my bed.. Again.. Because of me.. Again...i hate myself for what i have done to her.. I cant ruin her this way. I have to leave.. i must compel her and be satisifed when watching her from a distance at least that way i can keep her safe from other predators and from myself.

I gentley pushed Kara hoping she would wake up, knowing that i needed to do this now before i got too lost in her eyes.  I needed to be the predator that i am.. I need to treat her like a victim that i needed to compell in order for her not to remember me draining her life's essence.  Right, see Kara as a victim? not likely.  I Laugh a humourless laugh knowing that this was about to be the most hardest thing i would ever have to do.  Make sure that the love of my life forgot all about me and the horrible things i have done to her.

" Why are you laughing?" Kara asks groggily seemly still dazed from her passing out earlier.  This would be the perfect oppurtunity so that it wouldnt be emotional for me and it would be done before i knew it was even happening.  I take a deep breath.  " I want you to know that i have looked over you ever since that day of the fire, I felt our connection which will bond me to you forever, I know now that telling you the truth was something i should never have done because i wouldnt want to cause you more pain and distress than you have already suffered". i needed to get this out before i complelled her.. I needed to at least have said that once before i took all her memories away. But at least i will still have mine to cherish however brief they were. " I know that by me saying i love you seems so sudden but know that i have loved you for years and i will love you for years to come." i smile sadly while she looks at me with innocent eyes. " I love you too" Kara whispers.  I burst into tears, why did she have to say that.. Why? I smile sadly.  " Im sorry that i have to do this to you Kara" i say while i take in her confused expression.

" Look at me, look into my eyes" I start the process that will change my life forever.  " You will forget that you ever met me, you will forget the night we spent together and how i.. how... how i attacked you.. and how i told you what i was." i continue without taking a pause. " You will leave her and go home to Faye thinking that you had a bit too much to drink but you had a good night, and you will contniue your life as if i dont exist" I choked out the last bit trying to imagine never having these moments ever again.  " Aubrey what are you talking about?" i looked at KAra in shock... Why didnt that work?